Trench buddies

Haha what am I to know about digging trenches right ... But I guess digging one definitely means hard work and someone who really went into the deep with you... Not the kind that dig in a sale at mango though.... But digging deep requires transparency and truth and certainly not everyone would be able to withstand it ... Some times with clues picked up from bits and pieces you can form a jigsaw puzzle ... But sometimes people pick up a piece of corner and simply use their fantasy to picture the whole thing and if their fantasy scale is heavily geared to the dark side, everything seems to be gloomy like the person is wearing shades all the time.
When the whole world resounds a noise, sometimes I would just close my eyes cos I don't trust them anymore.. Using my spirit I cry out to God ... My trench buddy got trapped in the midst of the noise ... People all around are seemingly helping to search for my trench buddy but their noise is just simply a diversion.
During PM these people just pops into my mind..
PK, M & S
A ... I almost broke down in tears ... I thanked them while above all else was playing... Divine huh.. My daddy, my mom and my bro ... T28 flashed past ... No matter what others think or say, we do love God wholeheartedly and we love people fervently if not we wouldn't be in SOT in the first place and we wouldn't be working so hard in our ministries as well...
Well well, this must end in a lighter note .. Thank God for setting me free ... Though this week is a week of backstabs but I praying that God will give me the capacity to love these people though they just happily trample on the things I have tried to build for years...
See what the world is trying to do to you when you want to do something great...it's how misfortunate that one man's meat is another man's misfortune.

When the music fades..

It's coming to an end soon...

While somethings have ended, others are sprouting anew.
Keeping quiet watching my surrounding, my heart's desire renewed.
What's this pursuit that i have sought, when things have come to naught.
I pry open my eyes and i see a wounded soul.
i hid the tears and stories unfold.
Secrets of the past became a new stick to stir the present stories
I can feel the cold hit me.. What's the agenda i ponder.
If that makes you feel better, why the same traits have to come and bother me again.
What's with these TLP...

Blogging on bed

Managed to download a blogger app n I am testing it now... Just wanna say friends are those who genuinely reach out their hands to help when in need... And being candid honest and truthful , not talking behind or infront already..

Divine appointment…

WOW… What are the chances meeting the person going through the exact same thing with you and even the finest details are the same, with the correct music playing in the background when you both stop talking… like erm one in a billion!

It was really a divine meeting chill out coffee session which was totally unplanned for.. and the fact we decided to do it today… I can really see God’s humour in this but really.. we are like shrieking all the way while walking to Gloria’s and high fiving all the way at the traffic light.

It’s like God planted this meeting for us to share and I will be praying for you!!

Sighs… Enjoy life while we can huh.. we have so many things we wish to accomplish and when we are on stage it’s like nothing can stop us ^_^

Well.. we have 2 major differences but still.. jiayou okie..

we will update each other soon… think urs will change like erm.. days??! =.=

and one happy note. i can see WILBUR PAN!!!!!! this fri ^_^ haha can i have the dream like Fionna??? =b

I still have his first album can i like bring it for autograph?!! haha  really liked his role in the “不良校花”

Team 28! The original one.. in 2 weeks time guess we would be parting our ways moving on to the next phase of our lives but i hope we can still stay in contact as much as possible!

My DIs.. Thanks for being there man! Jiayou the both of you okie.. You have my blessings.. LOL and stop hitting me! =.=

haha lurve this nerdy specs day.. and i din realise cons was in joyous perfection! hahaha

till i looked through the emerge website today..

haha our classroom style pic at batam.. i am still trying to upload all the pics on facebook lor… taking me days =.=

U are so pretty gal.. =.= i really dun think stick thin suits you just stay trim and fit and healthy! you have a nice heart and that will make you glow =)

你总爱编织谎言我负责配合表演
所有改变只为了进入你的世界
这情节重复了一百遍
才发现是你的心太野

你划定楚河汉界我不能轻易犯规
所有时间都是先给了你优先权
不自觉爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协到头来还是无解
绑着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累
爱到妥协也无法将故事再重写
你已下最后通牒
我躲在我的世界

你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解不会变不再徘徊
开始自己的明天

…seems like most of my students are singing this song.. thanks to HK’s seasonal favourite song.

Miracle

Need a miracle...

anyway for some photo updates

hahaha from team 28

our first day at Qu You Ci Li ^_^ @ 100.3 pretty shiok co hosting for the first time!

Freedom

Guess what you focus on it will happen... Managed to have some soul food (though a movie would make it more complete)

Thurs was a day of waiting at embassy .. it's just a cross i need to carry for as long as i know..

Just have to repeat the same story over and over again whenever i flash the green booklet.. people are intrigued, but the price i pay is =.=

Noticed i can't be bothered with the comments but so are my friends lol.. my more unglam pics are already up on j's blog, and the emerge07 hair is like already on the powerpoint slide all over asia..

think my first twin is having the time of her life now.. she makes everything seems like a fairytale coming true.. of course there are still ups and down but she really pulled through, with God =.= go girl! can never forget the time she stayed over at my place praying for me (though that was the only time=b) kind of like one of my few regrets for making wrong decisions not to keep her by my side...

this song keeps running in my head...

你就直接回頭吧 她在等著你
不要怕我會哭泣 早就在心底
想想你說過的話 其實我們不虛假
那就好吧 其實你對我不差

別對我食之無味 棄之可惜
雖然你還有感覺 但不是愛情
想想你說過的話 其實我們不虛假
那就好了吧 這些夠了呀

我們的愛情是秘密 不能成立
就算我愛你也不能夠說明
她在你身邊逗你開心
我只不過讓你歇斯底里

你就讓我跟著你 一起祕密
我們的事情說好不提起
讓我們 都能夠清晰 你和她是不變的定律

haha.. just emo..

ouch.. swollen eye... again... better catch some rest .. will blog if i can get online tomolo !!

oyasuminasai

SOUL FOOD

I think i really need a break of some sort... i need to catch a movie! chill and just sleep!!!

well, really thank God for the pack of sardines that gathered at a monkey bar watching a monkey perform lol...
Seriously... TF is entertaining throughout the night and the atmosphere just drops when he leaves the table =.=

Starting to feel a bit sad to think that SOT is coming to an end... Though we have endless assignments and i am barely down with my preaching exams and gulp ... my bible reading...

I just thank God for all that He has done in my life and though this period of time I really have no one to turn to but God, but i guess is Him who wired my heart this way to ponder about things in life and what He has set for me to accomplish...

It's really a bittersweet feeling and though i really don't know how all of this is going to turn out, but i trust in Him to show me a way.
I guess i was really upset how the inilah song turned out on friday because i was really touched by the presence of God just worshipping in my bedroom on thursday night.. tears just flooded my cheeks and i really wanted to pull down the same presence on fri morning but i really had to pull the whole team along =.=
I really understand how PK feel when we are not moving with Him.. the frustrations and the fact that being the Levites, the grace and anointing is upon us and we should really have a deeper revelation of the true reason of why we are serving God in ministry and not just go through the motion.

haha the result of SOT

But i still want my soul food.... Pls pray for my visa apps to go on smoothly and i really want to see where God wants to take me to in July..

going expo now..
kitty