PERSPECTIVE

what is the thing that matters most to you?

What others think or say, or really.. just pleasing the one and only VIP .. GOD

It may sound easy but it's hard sometimes cause like what the bible say life and death lies in the tongue. Whatever you confess to yourself and say to others bring life and death, no doubt about it.

Sorry, but mean words with no edification or correction would simply fall to the ground. No one is perfect. I may have a splint in my eye but you may have a plank in yours.

In another 5 weeks SOT will be coming to an end... i guess we gain some but we lose some as well..

There are many unforgettable moments during these 5 months.

During the first 2 weeks i was trying my best to pull myself out of bed and stay awake.. till now my eyes are wide opened but shut at the same time.. haha

I will miss praying and holy laughing with steph and regi.. giving words of knowledge and prophesying!! woohoo~~

my sardine gang who i went out on a few occasions and traveled down town with them. really funny classmates like toilet friend can make your day !

the sot SLs... for sticking it thru thick and thin... haha

my beloved musos.. ALLEMILIE! Robert Sia...

well.. this is a time i got to play the keys finally for p&w.. indeed God works in mysterious ways

and He has a divine time for everything. I understand how team1 feels when you know you have a gift or talent that seems God given, but God has not decided to use it yet..

Like my dream of playing stagea in heaven, I would think that was it.. the end.. until God used me in a bigger way doing what i am doing now.. (though i still think ultimately i will be contented playing stagea in heaven) but right now, it doesn't seem to be the time for it. And God kind of turned my plan B or rather what i never thought of into His plan A ...

It's tough along the way, the moulding process, coming to a point where ur life is under scrutiny, like you are a super being. Being someone whom others perceive so differently as one's true self is never easy. And it's even harder to find friends who truly understand and know or rather, allow you to be who you are.

Since few years ago, my life has taken a direction which i realise i never expect it to be and now moving on those things i have persistently clung on to seems to pale in comparison what God has promised me.

The solution is by constantly depending on GOD!

till then..

Kitty

Time to update!!!

My bad... sorry for not updating..

=.= my eyes are already closing actually and i have yet finish reading my notes for the mcq test tomolo!!!! hahaha
Had a really really looonngg practice today at Jurong West and i think i reached home around 12 plus close to 1am =.=

How have I been... F&N Commercial for DFC is up already!! haha wanted to talk about this long ago but we weren't supposed to say anything till it's on air..
and an angel got me a netbook.. and my advance birthday present ^_^ haha guess he is putting his treasure where his heart is but i just want to say another BIG THANK YOU to BB
Feeling kinda sad actually now that there's only 8 weeks left to SOT..
I am kind of slowly getting used to waking up that early ..though i crawl out of bed sometimes.. and want to head home rather than hanging out and have endless assignments to do..
but i really thank God for His divine time in everything.
I will miss my SOT peeps... Anamalie!!!

Tomorrow's the student gathering... and i have many interesting things to share with them!
Gotta go prepare it now.. meanwhile... check out photo updates on my facebook!

GOD BLESS

Kitty’s latest updates

really really sad cos my laptop is down!!!!!!!

now i really need a new one… was admiring javius’s macbook pro during lesson today.. so cool man!!

Plus a handphone that doesn’t allow calls to come through sometimes is not really that helpful at all!

Today is one of the rare hour that i can just sit here and blog a bit before my next lesson commences.. there seems to be tons of work on hand and i dunno where to begin..

Pst Mike is amazing!!! really need to pray hard for tomolo though.. not sure how many songs i would need to sing till everyone is ministered! gonna be an exciting meeting tomolo… and i hope i can wake up earlier than usual… really no more $$ to waste on cabs… i took a cab to work and then realised that the student has cancelled his lesson yest..=.=

waiting for my free dinner from nana…

thinking of the new xinwang taiwan cafe!! gosh.. i really miss taiwan.. think the under 25s are going for one trip next month.. really miss the action!

there seems like a million things i want to do but i can’t have it at the same time.. i really want a breakthrough!

i prob have more entries if i stop telling myself i have to upload the photos as well too =b

so for photos everyone has to go to facebook i guess..

i started a new chinese blog at www.wretch.cc/blog/estellasia

i will write more abt singing and interesting things that happens in class .. and i am trying very hard to update..

 

God please give me a laptop so i can bring to class and blog more!!

Amen.

Kitty really busy

okie my faithful readers are complaining… sorry for the non updates man… i am still catching up on my readings and my assignment which is going to be due next mon!!!

SOT is really sxciting so far.. but i still learning how to stay awake sometimes =b Enjoy the presence of God though.. He helps to make the trip down boon lay worth it!

anyway.. my photo updates are now shifted to facebook and i will be starting my chinese blog for my students .. mainly puting up videos of them and sharing more stuff abt singing and performances..

till then…

Est @ Mac with  SW and SX

Kitty in an imperfect world

The imperfect world really scares me sometimes… the fake smiles, and the fact that people bother to act  like they don’t mind while they do  and in the end stabbing you in the back.. just like some weirdo that steps into your life and say they don’t like you…

Judge not or you will be judged…

But it just doesn’t make sense… well… let the truth come to light..

If only they can  hear what xue qian has been going thru in korea. the training is so tough the artistes get beaten up if they sing wrongly.. wow.. while students here get the ‘royal’ treatment… they  even complain if they get scolded for not practicing??!! complaining they are not learning anything is like .. duh??

Like wat Pst M said.. some things are caught.. not taught… esp for the practical side of the lesson.. of course theory if there is doubts.. ask till they are cleared? This subject is so abstract when i first learnt it i literally was stunned and left with many doubts even when i was taught by one of the best instructors ard. I just have to keep applying and observing how isit done..

being in this line so long… there is only one occurence where the student did more research at home and came with doubts so we could do more discussions abt it.. nowadays.. printing own lyrics is even hard???

observing the successful artistes last week made me realise something.. they are did their homework and their talents and dilligence matches up to become who they are…

like wat Jay said.. this place is too safe for people to work hard enough to make it in this industry…. watchng the Brit’s Got Talent finalists  it made me realise the huge diff btw people there and here.. It’s either make it or break it there while most people here have tofu hearts…

This industry is not for the faint hearted..

If this is going to get me down the devil  gotta try harder.

 

Happy Kitty facing IT problems =.=

^_^ Word quota probably going to exceed one blog.. there are like a million thing i can update but i dunno where to begin! I should continue my blogging habit lest i get a blog diarrhoea….haha

The very first happy thing of yesterday is my starbucks  given by BB… it;s been a while since i have that  cos i was trying to save money$$ the last one i had was given by an Angel hehe..

hmm and the next very happy thing is i finally get to strike off my wish list.. i dun need the white creative headphones anymore cos BB got me a skullcandy!!! woohoooo!!!! Better than any other empty promises in the world and the most touching part is it cost like a third of  BB’s pay =.=

ha ha and is also pretty treble which means i can do mixing with it! hee

=.= and now my phone is giving me problems… an angel please bless me with a phone.. preferably blackberry cos everyone is messaging free using the pins!!

and a keyboard =( think CL is getting irritated having to carry the heavy KORG and it’s not mine i kind of worried abt the wear and tear part.. no $$ to pay JJ.. sighz

and as i type this blog the cursor in my laptop keeps moving to random places and  i have to retype…GOD!!!

is this like a joke all the electronic stuff ard me is breaking down……

even my nds can’t read the latest games and i have been trying to fix the prob but to no avail…

need a IT revival…

 

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SOT started! and it’s the 4th day and i am already down with a fever ..hehe

Slept for a while just now and now my brain can’t seem to slow down and rest..

This sat would be our EP launch! wonder how many friends will come and buy…=)

after which we have rehearsals for Laoshi’s concert and now rehearsing for CSS as well!! Finals on the 12th apr which is Easter..sighz…can’t attend i guess

Then we have filming.. then we have sheng shiong next mon…

Na was saying: ‘you really trying to stretch your limits huh…” she was mentioning that the word Capacity really pops out to her this week and i guess it will be a test for every single one of us at SOT..

I am trying very hard to stay awake.. though the ministry times are really good.. Presence of God is strong and memories of mission trip starts to flood back… Singing p n w and hearing the word every single day .. isn’t it just like like in TW ? except after that i get to go shilin ye shi while i have jamming till late nights here =.=

With that thought.. suddenlly it din seem that difficult after all… except till when the assignments start piling..

We get to sign a Code of Conduct which apparently last for a lifetime.. hehe well… I guess it’s all good especially when this period would be a time to tear down all the false walls of denial and let God enter in..

Although PD’s drawing was really amusing but isn’t it so true that sometimes we let Holy Spirit be in us but it’s compartmentalised  till some areas are somehow left untouched even by God.. For He is a gentle spirit which doesn’t want  to impose on us what He wants for us.. I guess i have been escaping some truths but i feel very encouraged that there’s someone behind me encouraging me as well every single day =)

till then…

XOXO