My eye was swollen

Thank God the swell reduced!!! the dramatic difference when i woke up on mon...

Thanks for all those who faithfully asked for update of my swollen eye... the strangest people i expected to nag at me.. haha.. more mums...

Hope Joyce Meyer can be of help to you.. will pray for you!!!!

must wake up later...

Photo diary

Spare me

cut some slack please... many things on my mind

1) 4 demosssss!! bang will call me soon... plus many lyrics that need melodies...
2) ISORG assignment + blog project
3) CF assignment
4) UV syllabus........

Want to sleep now cos tomolo gotta wake early.. have been working really hard . I know my vision and what i want in life... People need to accept that it's different from theirs.

I hate being stuck in this situation like i was stuck in early this yr.
I want to be efficient but being labelled not.
I want to be successful but being labelled not.
I really want to narrow down my focus...

God show me the way.

The Exchange Made at the Cross

Jesus loves me this I know... For the Bible tells me so...

one of the great exchange was Jesus received the curse due to us for breaking God's law, that we might receive the blessings due to Christ's obedience.

These are the curses:
1) Mental and emotional breakdown
2) Chronic sicknesses.
3) Repeated miscarriages
4) Repeated failed marriages.
5) Financial lack and bankruptcies
6) Continuous accidents
7) A history of suicide and unnatural deaths in the family.

On the cross, Jesus redeemed us from the curse so that the blessings of God can now come upon us!!!!!!!!!!

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Janice awokened up with tears in her eyes... It's not the first time she has dreamt of him again... why the wound in the dream hurts so much as though it was a fresh one??

A familiar voice was on the line... after much struggle, she ended up with swollen eye bags and stared out of the window... The night sky was pitch dark, yet she hoped for a glimpse of a star, a symbol of hope. "God is still watching, i hoped.." she mumbled to herself.

Why did she behave this way? Why does she have pricks all over like a porcupine...
Her heart hurts badly as she recalls the scenarios... way back as a little girl. She cries out to God for help, hoping to get an answer out of this vicious cycle. ..
Somethings needs to be unlearned and relearned. Looking back, she has no one to blame but herself. The 2 words isn't hard to say, neither is the 3 words... but she was just wary, perhaps seeing Dad's ways made her extra careful not to commit but now that she wants to but the words just gets choked in her throat...

Janice was often envious of those ladies she meet at the high tea parties, dressed to their nines, ladylike and married with loving husbands. She often wished she could be less as a socialite and avoid the discussions of their holiday trips, the latest gifts they received and everything that reminds her of her situation.

She's turning 30.. time for her to settle down, but she's stuck in a situation she's not sure if she can ever get out. Will that 2 words really make a difference? She has nothing to lose trying... but she risking her destiny and life.

Stay tuned.
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more photo and video updates soon.. gotta sleep...

photo update

waist long hair

perhaps i might want to keep real waist long hair again...

i don't even have as many of my waist long hair photos as shing's....hehe


me grabbing some toys @ hua lien, taiwan



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it's now 5.29am...
going to bid farewell to my laptop in a few hours time... for a new one!!!
some graphic card that's not correct and i had to transfer everything to shan's hard disk.. and i transferred some ds games too... supposed to copy notes.. oh well...

Thank God i checked the portal...think chengsong haven complain yet... how come Radha's still putting tutorials up on the portal for us to print??!! network analysis tutorial... only one i knoe how to do ... gotta use the laptop tomolo to start doing up my isorg website..*gulps*

suppoosed to squeeze some tune out for songwriter's club.. guess i can only do it during break time...
neverending work... i can feel the chiongster in me disappearing... the hectic life is back... i am amazed how i felt reluctant to watch resident evil on saturday but i needed a break...

glad cch svc was pretty fine except for a hiccup during offering! quite an obvious one.. hope the video gets uploaded soon....
hmm. God help me love a person that i never step on his toes so why he tries to step mine... rrrr

some photo updates
teng hong's bday @ Marina Bowling... i will update the evidence of my free treat @ Lawry's Ribs & Pan Pacific Japanese Teppanyaki soon...hahahaha


one of my last kimchi feast with mommy j and sher before i embark on my blood type diet!! can feel it working... more beef please!!! hehe

the uncanny resemblance scares many... >_<


bunny mooncake from huang yali.. pretty interesting teaching her..

not forgetting chestnut dessert @ liang seah street.. n307's fave hangout.. check out for more videos once i get my new laptop!!!

Waiting for hair to dry

Guess i am turning in real soon... if not i wouldn't be able to wake up tomolo!!!!!!

Been a while since i last updated blogs... or even upload videos or pictures... it's so many of them that it will hang halfway and i would have to start over again and before that happens i will doze off...........zzzz.

Been feeling like mommy jace nowadays... after sch reopened and after paying $$ sch fees... plus BF coming... dun feel like going out nowadays... told myself this 25th yr is to clear exams and SOT and if there's a chance to go tw again.. dun want to think much abt other things...just want to make things right this time...

Praying for a more accurate discernment in the HS. wish i can really pick up every quiet little word that's spoken..

In the lecture was prompted to just press my bible reader.. and the verse "line on line, precept upon precept appeared.." hint for bible school? hehe

Dilligence and Focus is the key of life.. kind of enjoy going through lectures alone.. i kind of concentrate better and copy more notes! and pretty amazingly stay awake through 2 of cf lect already.

maybe i have been trained.. i kind of don't give things to much tot. forgive and forget? and really forget.... kind of unbelievable but tomolo i going to visit my "daughter"... the tot of it brought me to tears but i really pray i can control my tap tomolo.. just want to give her a good hug.
just all that drama/comedy one week ago... anyway now i have a secret with me that's worth more than gold and precious rubies.. hahaha

don't feel like talking much cos i dunno why i am surrounded with similar dispositions.. oxymorons.. after spilling my whole life story which i seldom share with people i get a statement "i don;t really knoe u.." ( PLLEEAASSE don't msn me and ask me to give an essay on this paragraph cos i am just blurting my feelings and i use capitals cos is a plead. ...not angry...sighz.. still must have footnotes)
and i am not God ... i won;t knoe when u(not the same u in previous sentence) dun want u talk abt it (most of the time u try to hide and pretend the world dunno u are feeling down) and when u need words of encouragement... but spending time alone is good..
haha i knoe how mommy jace felt when sher was gone and suddenly there was no huge commotions in her life and no telephone calls with screams of excitement..
2 weeks ago when shan was in tw mommy j was laughing.. "haha no one to chiong with.." but kind of got my "guai engine" started in the end..

power of focus! i am amazed how i prefer staying at home or to sleep early...
my hair drying ssoonn and i have been yawning for the past half an hour and eyes closing.. amazing! another exciting day ahead! nageb and beyond!!

hairclip girl is back!!!!!!