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I've Got a Feeling

2009-11-23T03:34:00.002+08:00

Well, 2009 is coming to an end.

It's sure was an eventful one... ... just that the Gossip Girl did not have a chance to document what went on my life... LOL

Sorry for the non update June, maybe i kind of got caught up with the late nights till updating my blog became last on the list =.=

The sudden obsession with LAN gaming *surprisingly* did not really help and i really can't play it too late into the night, or rather for too long or everyone else i see in the street looks like zombies... haha

Watched 2012 and did ponder if the world was to end then, should be just laze around and do what we want, and risk ending up fat and poor like what maxim said.. hahaha which of cos the world wouldn't end then because the bible said so. If people end up giving excuses that it may just be a major catastrophe happening that year, maybe they did not realise the end times signs are already taking place =.=

Do not really want this post to go into that direction actually....
maybe my life is really like a huge joke. Of all people why me? i often wondered. but yet the happenings are not at all unique.. but still this combination is pretty much like The Days of Our Lives...

Just thanking God for His grace... I really wonder what would have happened if I did not find the answer to why we are really on this earth. Though as years passes i realise maturity does not come with age, and our view points do not need to match the world..

I am supposed to get the video up first and i am running out of time so till the next photo update!!

Outing...

2009-10-24T16:13:00.000+08:00

On the way back to teach!!

Well... Here are some highlights for these two days!!
Guess what I found just now!!

Hello kitty shoes!!! Really divine just bumped right into it while walking ard bugis waiting for diamond Di :b

I even get to test out iPod nano and submitted a video entry abt love which is going to be on YouTube soon... Lol

Oh man I am like running out of cash for the cab =.=

Hughes wearing the " magic glasses" which I lent him which ha the power to read notes faster... Lol

While listening to weisong laoshi giving songwriting tips...

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Reinventing

2009-10-22T22:02:00.000+08:00

Renewing rejuvenate restoring ... Hahaha

Hi guys a push from my faithful blog readers compel me to update here..
While I am in a long train ride after a gruelsome session of nihongo =.= wow my homework is piling!!!!
Strange to blog with the left and right staring at what u are doing... Lol .. Haha thank god for the glossy finish
Well well guess I have been resting forcefully by my body. Knocked up is exactly what I should describe what I experience everyday till the extend during weekends I wun dare to sleep so soundly, ESP when the call time is like 8 am......
It would be considered miraculous to be awake for MPM but I did it!! Haha
And I almost got on the wrong train...
I wished I had an answer for everything in life but some things just dun go as planned.. But if u take a step of faith to do it, u might be immediately be frightened by the thought of what if u din!!
Never wanted to live an ordinary life, or rather, I dun really have a chance to live one...
I have a new student who is a 'hot mama' with 2 sons and she's just 25! Plus she is a freelance manicurist!! Haha just the taitai life I wanted lol but then again things would be completely different now =.= running after 2 toddlers?? *cold sweat*...
Haha how fanatic I was? I have a letter written for my daughter already ... Lol or rather it is actually 3 pages of a handwritten diary.. Think it's cool to let ur child know what really happened in ur life before he/ she conceived.
My to do list for this season kind of consists of packing all my stuff .. Books piled up everywhere in my room since SOT and I realized all corners other than the bed, comp, wardrobe and accessory basket are piling on dust...

Well , here are some photoupdates...

Grace the pretty bride got married on the 12th of Oct!!

Spotted: dfc at busstop opposite cineleisure ... And we are performing on the 9th dec at the GYSB Boomz Concert!!

My cycling outing... We must do it again!!! Lol

Makan at JB ... really delicious!!!

Well jamming with bandse7en and our gig is just next week!!! Here's the thumbnail of the video I can't upload hahaha

Never mind the pose but our reaally seriousss weekly pract on Wednesdays... Lol

Till more ^_^

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ME

2009-10-01T04:28:00.000+08:00

Back

2009-09-25T09:51:00.000+08:00

Well... Since no one can really guess where my new blog is haha I will update public stuff over... Going cycling though there's haze... See how things go^_^

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Thank you

2009-09-22T15:11:00.001+08:00

Thank you to those appearing above... These are the people who made me forget my troubles whenever i spend my time with them...

well, moving on to another blog which is not blogger because i kind of want a blog name without my name in it LOL...

well... i just might update stuff here as well.. so stay tuned ^_^

Bon Voyage

2009-09-02T20:56:00.000+08:00

Just sent Mavis off in the morning.. She is like one of the longest surviving colleague in my school next to Huan Cheng and JJ which i see them like for eternity.. especially our 仙姑！ LOL

Well, we were prepared to shed buckets but we kind of spent the last moments laughing our hearts off taking photos with the M&M dispensers that the next minute when she left, we still had our smiles... except for meixin who already burst into tears..
Maybe the fact that she is coming back like soon like next June? Time seems to flash past really quickly and it's almost a year already...

Well, it has been a pretty eventful year.. Still remember when the clock strucked 12 on the 7th, I was at Nicole's wake... It's a pity that I would not be able to rush back on time for her memorial service but really, is what she has done that has left an eternity in our hearts... just like people who walk in and out of our lives.

One Di said that he has just walk out of people's lives just within a snap of a finger, but i beg to differ.
Our memories and emotions can't be erased just like that?! Sometimes memories are so vivid, it just leaves a deep imprint in our hearts... whether good or bad..

I just saved myself of a blog entry recently listening the song that was recommended, i can't help wonder that why people don't see the struggles we have within.. Maybe 'cos if they really see it, they probably would have a total different perspective of us!
Sighs just like the psychologist in NTU said that people are judging you with every photo u upload on the net, I was quite tempted to leave the really wrong camera angle photo taken by DD of me and SD which was really very yanzhong looking, when we were like standing like 2 shoulder arms width away!!

Jesus said,"Let him who is without sin cast the first stone"...
But it would really be much easier to avoid being having the person attempting to take the stone.

Just want to thank Aunt Evon for blessing me just to go for my long awaited holiday.. I wouldn't really count mission trips as a holiday cos we are on tight schedules cos half the time we are like memorising lyrics in foreign language or having the stress of song leading.. and we can't really just switch off the phone and enjoy every moment of it .. i guess the last holiday i really was also at the very same place but this time i believe it's like packed to the brim with many activities! i miss the minced meat with basil leave and chilli padi which is like just S$3 or so!!! I wonder how things have changed 'cos the last time i went there it was 2004 i think =.=

Dad called in time last night to wish me bon voyage.. really miss him loads...

Uncle saying he thought my lingerie entry was literal??!! YANZHONG....=.=
and he mentioned that my blog entries and usually happy??!
Haha maybe cos i choose to look on the brighter side of things.. that doesn't mean i am okay but just that i learn to give weight to words that are spoken by people who genuinely know what's going on and are true friends?

I don't really understand the rational of looking at the blog of someone you don't like cos you are like giving away time which is like part of your life to the person already loll

Uncle, this blog entry blunt enuff liao bo... =.=
F5

Lingerie

2009-08-25T15:38:00.000+08:00

Just thought of an analogy..
You have different kinds of lingerie, sometimes cute, natural or even wild..according to your moods but you can't really let the whole world know or see...
Probably just your partner.

Sometimes you slip on your camisole and thought it would be fine to let people see the camisole with a jacket over but boyyy... the wrong person saw it and made it a mountain out of a molehill..

It's trendy nowadays to show your innerwear like camisole, spags with something else over so items like camisole stays in a grey area on whether isit a lingerie in the first place or just like another ordinary attire people wear on the outside.

Isit wrong for you to wear the camisole? No one can really measure it because of the different ammoral values and culture, but to slap a judgement over a person wearing it?

The bible says judge not or you will be judged.

What is the most valuable lesson learnt?
Lingerie is after all lingerie? OR really learn not to judge others lest you will be judged.

The former will still be debatable over the next 1000 yrs in different forms but the latter is for eternal.

I have decided to focus on what's in stored in heaven.

Meanwhile, uniqlo sells really nice cotton short sleeved tops... till the next time when they have nicer camisoles...

Updates

2009-08-23T21:37:00.001+08:00

Wellwell sorry blog readers so sorry for not really updating... I am trying put new photo update tools and stuuff on my iPhone .. Doing our LER photoshoot now ^_^ sigh can't join the peeps at the farewell party I hope they will still be there later =.=

Trench buddies

2009-08-13T00:10:00.002+08:00

Haha what am I to know about digging trenches right ... But I guess digging one definitely means hard work and someone who really went into the deep with you... Not the kind that dig in a sale at mango though.... But digging deep requires transparency and truth and certainly not everyone would be able to withstand it ... Some times with clues picked up from bits and pieces you can form a jigsaw puzzle ... But sometimes people pick up a piece of corner and simply use their fantasy to picture the whole thing and if their fantasy scale is heavily geared to the dark side, everything seems to be gloomy like the person is wearing shades all the time.
When the whole world resounds a noise, sometimes I would just close my eyes cos I don't trust them anymore.. Using my spirit I cry out to God ... My trench buddy got trapped in the midst of the noise ... People all around are seemingly helping to search for my trench buddy but their noise is just simply a diversion.
During PM these people just pops into my mind..
PK, M & S
A ... I almost broke down in tears ... I thanked them while above all else was playing... Divine huh.. My daddy, my mom and my bro ... T28 flashed past ... No matter what others think or say, we do love God wholeheartedly and we love people fervently if not we wouldn't be in SOT in the first place and we wouldn't be working so hard in our ministries as well...
Well well, this must end in a lighter note .. Thank God for setting me free ... Though this week is a week of backstabs but I praying that God will give me the capacity to love these people though they just happily trample on the things I have tried to build for years...
See what the world is trying to do to you when you want to do something great...it's how misfortunate that one man's meat is another man's misfortune.

When the music fades..

2009-08-08T15:22:00.002+08:00

It's coming to an end soon...

While somethings have ended, others are sprouting anew.
Keeping quiet watching my surrounding, my heart's desire renewed.
What's this pursuit that i have sought, when things have come to naught.
I pry open my eyes and i see a wounded soul.
i hid the tears and stories unfold.
Secrets of the past became a new stick to stir the present stories
I can feel the cold hit me.. What's the agenda i ponder.
If that makes you feel better, why the same traits have to come and bother me again.
What's with these TLP...

Blogging on bed

2009-08-02T02:57:00.001+08:00

Managed to download a blogger app n I am testing it now... Just wanna say friends are those who genuinely reach out their hands to help when in need... And being candid honest and truthful , not talking behind or infront already..

Divine appointment…

2009-07-31T01:51:00.001+08:00

WOW… What are the chances meeting the person going through the exact same thing with you and even the finest details are the same, with the correct music playing in the background when you both stop talking… like erm one in a billion!

It was really a divine meeting chill out coffee session which was totally unplanned for.. and the fact we decided to do it today… I can really see God’s humour in this but really.. we are like shrieking all the way while walking to Gloria’s and high fiving all the way at the traffic light.

It’s like God planted this meeting for us to share and I will be praying for you!!

Sighs… Enjoy life while we can huh.. we have so many things we wish to accomplish and when we are on stage it’s like nothing can stop us ^_^

Well.. we have 2 major differences but still.. jiayou okie..

we will update each other soon… think urs will change like erm.. days??! =.=

and one happy note. i can see WILBUR PAN!!!!!! this fri ^_^ haha can i have the dream like Fionna??? =b

I still have his first album can i like bring it for autograph?!! haha really liked his role in the “不良校花”

Team 28! The original one.. in 2 weeks time guess we would be parting our ways moving on to the next phase of our lives but i hope we can still stay in contact as much as possible!

My DIs.. Thanks for being there man! Jiayou the both of you okie.. You have my blessings.. LOL and stop hitting me! =.=

haha lurve this nerdy specs day.. and i din realise cons was in joyous perfection! hahaha

till i looked through the emerge website today..

haha our classroom style pic at batam.. i am still trying to upload all the pics on facebook lor… taking me days =.=

U are so pretty gal.. =.= i really dun think stick thin suits you just stay trim and fit and healthy! you have a nice heart and that will make you glow =)

你总爱编织谎言我负责配合表演
所有改变只为了进入你的世界
这情节重复了一百遍
才发现是你的心太野

你划定楚河汉界我不能轻易犯规
所有时间都是先给了你优先权
不自觉爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协到头来还是无解
绑着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累
爱到妥协也无法将故事再重写
你已下最后通牒
我躲在我的世界

你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解不会变不再徘徊
开始自己的明天

…seems like most of my students are singing this song.. thanks to HK’s seasonal favourite song.

Miracle

2009-07-19T03:53:00.002+08:00

Need a miracle...

anyway for some photo updates

hahaha from team 28

our first day at Qu You Ci Li ^_^ @ 100.3 pretty shiok co hosting for the first time!

Freedom

2009-07-17T02:14:00.002+08:00

Guess what you focus on it will happen... Managed to have some soul food (though a movie would make it more complete)

Thurs was a day of waiting at embassy .. it's just a cross i need to carry for as long as i know..

Just have to repeat the same story over and over again whenever i flash the green booklet.. people are intrigued, but the price i pay is =.=

Noticed i can't be bothered with the comments but so are my friends lol.. my more unglam pics are already up on j's blog, and the emerge07 hair is like already on the powerpoint slide all over asia..

think my first twin is having the time of her life now.. she makes everything seems like a fairytale coming true.. of course there are still ups and down but she really pulled through, with God =.= go girl! can never forget the time she stayed over at my place praying for me (though that was the only time=b) kind of like one of my few regrets for making wrong decisions not to keep her by my side...

this song keeps running in my head...

你就直接回頭吧她在等著你
不要怕我會哭泣早就在心底
想想你說過的話其實我們不虛假
那就好吧其實你對我不差

別對我食之無味棄之可惜
雖然你還有感覺但不是愛情
想想你說過的話其實我們不虛假
那就好了吧這些夠了呀

我們的愛情是秘密不能成立
就算我愛你也不能夠說明
她在你身邊逗你開心
我只不過讓你歇斯底里

你就讓我跟著你一起祕密
我們的事情說好不提起
讓我們都能夠清晰你和她是不變的定律

haha.. just emo..

ouch.. swollen eye... again... better catch some rest .. will blog if i can get online tomolo !!

oyasuminasai

SOUL FOOD

2009-07-11T18:00:00.003+08:00

I think i really need a break of some sort... i need to catch a movie! chill and just sleep!!!

well, really thank God for the pack of sardines that gathered at a monkey bar watching a monkey perform lol...
Seriously... TF is entertaining throughout the night and the atmosphere just drops when he leaves the table =.=

Starting to feel a bit sad to think that SOT is coming to an end... Though we have endless assignments and i am barely down with my preaching exams and gulp ... my bible reading...

I just thank God for all that He has done in my life and though this period of time I really have no one to turn to but God, but i guess is Him who wired my heart this way to ponder about things in life and what He has set for me to accomplish...

It's really a bittersweet feeling and though i really don't know how all of this is going to turn out, but i trust in Him to show me a way.
I guess i was really upset how the inilah song turned out on friday because i was really touched by the presence of God just worshipping in my bedroom on thursday night.. tears just flooded my cheeks and i really wanted to pull down the same presence on fri morning but i really had to pull the whole team along =.=
I really understand how PK feel when we are not moving with Him.. the frustrations and the fact that being the Levites, the grace and anointing is upon us and we should really have a deeper revelation of the true reason of why we are serving God in ministry and not just go through the motion.

haha the result of SOT

But i still want my soul food.... Pls pray for my visa apps to go on smoothly and i really want to see where God wants to take me to in July..

going expo now..
kitty

PERSPECTIVE

2009-07-07T02:26:00.002+08:00

what is the thing that matters most to you?

What others think or say, or really.. just pleasing the one and only VIP .. GOD

It may sound easy but it's hard sometimes cause like what the bible say life and death lies in the tongue. Whatever you confess to yourself and say to others bring life and death, no doubt about it.

Sorry, but mean words with no edification or correction would simply fall to the ground. No one is perfect. I may have a splint in my eye but you may have a plank in yours.

In another 5 weeks SOT will be coming to an end... i guess we gain some but we lose some as well..

There are many unforgettable moments during these 5 months.

During the first 2 weeks i was trying my best to pull myself out of bed and stay awake.. till now my eyes are wide opened but shut at the same time.. haha

I will miss praying and holy laughing with steph and regi.. giving words of knowledge and prophesying!! woohoo~~

my sardine gang who i went out on a few occasions and traveled down town with them. really funny classmates like toilet friend can make your day !

the sot SLs... for sticking it thru thick and thin... haha

my beloved musos.. ALLEMILIE! Robert Sia...

well.. this is a time i got to play the keys finally for p&w.. indeed God works in mysterious ways

and He has a divine time for everything. I understand how team1 feels when you know you have a gift or talent that seems God given, but God has not decided to use it yet..

Like my dream of playing stagea in heaven, I would think that was it.. the end.. until God used me in a bigger way doing what i am doing now.. (though i still think ultimately i will be contented playing stagea in heaven) but right now, it doesn't seem to be the time for it. And God kind of turned my plan B or rather what i never thought of into His plan A ...

It's tough along the way, the moulding process, coming to a point where ur life is under scrutiny, like you are a super being. Being someone whom others perceive so differently as one's true self is never easy. And it's even harder to find friends who truly understand and know or rather, allow you to be who you are.

Since few years ago, my life has taken a direction which i realise i never expect it to be and now moving on those things i have persistently clung on to seems to pale in comparison what God has promised me.

The solution is by constantly depending on GOD!

till then..

Kitty

Time to update!!!

2009-06-25T01:27:00.002+08:00

My bad... sorry for not updating..

=.= my eyes are already closing actually and i have yet finish reading my notes for the mcq test tomolo!!!! hahaha
Had a really really looonngg practice today at Jurong West and i think i reached home around 12 plus close to 1am =.=

How have I been... F&N Commercial for DFC is up already!! haha wanted to talk about this long ago but we weren't supposed to say anything till it's on air..
and an angel got me a netbook.. and my advance birthday present ^_^ haha guess he is putting his treasure where his heart is but i just want to say another BIG THANK YOU to BB
Feeling kinda sad actually now that there's only 8 weeks left to SOT..
I am kind of slowly getting used to waking up that early ..though i crawl out of bed sometimes.. and want to head home rather than hanging out and have endless assignments to do..
but i really thank God for His divine time in everything.
I will miss my SOT peeps... Anamalie!!!

Tomorrow's the student gathering... and i have many interesting things to share with them!
Gotta go prepare it now.. meanwhile... check out photo updates on my facebook!

GOD BLESS

Kitty’s latest updates

2009-05-26T18:07:00.001+08:00

really really sad cos my laptop is down!!!!!!!

now i really need a new one… was admiring javius’s macbook pro during lesson today.. so cool man!!

Plus a handphone that doesn’t allow calls to come through sometimes is not really that helpful at all!

Today is one of the rare hour that i can just sit here and blog a bit before my next lesson commences.. there seems to be tons of work on hand and i dunno where to begin..

Pst Mike is amazing!!! really need to pray hard for tomolo though.. not sure how many songs i would need to sing till everyone is ministered! gonna be an exciting meeting tomolo… and i hope i can wake up earlier than usual… really no more $$ to waste on cabs… i took a cab to work and then realised that the student has cancelled his lesson yest..=.=

waiting for my free dinner from nana…

thinking of the new xinwang taiwan cafe!! gosh.. i really miss taiwan.. think the under 25s are going for one trip next month.. really miss the action!

there seems like a million things i want to do but i can’t have it at the same time.. i really want a breakthrough!

i prob have more entries if i stop telling myself i have to upload the photos as well too =b

so for photos everyone has to go to facebook i guess..

i started a new chinese blog at www.wretch.cc/blog/estellasia

i will write more abt singing and interesting things that happens in class .. and i am trying very hard to update..

God please give me a laptop so i can bring to class and blog more!!

Amen.

Kitty really busy

2009-05-08T00:45:00.001+08:00

okie my faithful readers are complaining… sorry for the non updates man… i am still catching up on my readings and my assignment which is going to be due next mon!!!

SOT is really sxciting so far.. but i still learning how to stay awake sometimes =b Enjoy the presence of God though.. He helps to make the trip down boon lay worth it!

anyway.. my photo updates are now shifted to facebook and i will be starting my chinese blog for my students .. mainly puting up videos of them and sharing more stuff abt singing and performances..

till then…

Est @ Mac with SW and SX

Kitty in an imperfect world

2009-04-22T01:21:00.001+08:00

The imperfect world really scares me sometimes… the fake smiles, and the fact that people bother to act like they don’t mind while they do and in the end stabbing you in the back.. just like some weirdo that steps into your life and say they don’t like you…

Judge not or you will be judged…

But it just doesn’t make sense… well… let the truth come to light..

If only they can hear what xue qian has been going thru in korea. the training is so tough the artistes get beaten up if they sing wrongly.. wow.. while students here get the ‘royal’ treatment… they even complain if they get scolded for not practicing??!! complaining they are not learning anything is like .. duh??

Like wat Pst M said.. some things are caught.. not taught… esp for the practical side of the lesson.. of course theory if there is doubts.. ask till they are cleared? This subject is so abstract when i first learnt it i literally was stunned and left with many doubts even when i was taught by one of the best instructors ard. I just have to keep applying and observing how isit done..

being in this line so long… there is only one occurence where the student did more research at home and came with doubts so we could do more discussions abt it.. nowadays.. printing own lyrics is even hard???

observing the successful artistes last week made me realise something.. they are did their homework and their talents and dilligence matches up to become who they are…

like wat Jay said.. this place is too safe for people to work hard enough to make it in this industry…. watchng the Brit’s Got Talent finalists it made me realise the huge diff btw people there and here.. It’s either make it or break it there while most people here have tofu hearts…

This industry is not for the faint hearted..

If this is going to get me down the devil gotta try harder.

Happy Kitty facing IT problems =.=

2009-04-12T03:22:00.001+08:00

^_^ Word quota probably going to exceed one blog.. there are like a million thing i can update but i dunno where to begin! I should continue my blogging habit lest i get a blog diarrhoea….haha

The very first happy thing of yesterday is my starbucks given by BB… it;s been a while since i have that cos i was trying to save money$$ the last one i had was given by an Angel hehe..

hmm and the next very happy thing is i finally get to strike off my wish list.. i dun need the white creative headphones anymore cos BB got me a skullcandy!!! woohoooo!!!! Better than any other empty promises in the world and the most touching part is it cost like a third of BB’s pay =.=

ha ha and is also pretty treble which means i can do mixing with it! hee

=.= and now my phone is giving me problems… an angel please bless me with a phone.. preferably blackberry cos everyone is messaging free using the pins!!

and a keyboard =( think CL is getting irritated having to carry the heavy KORG and it’s not mine i kind of worried abt the wear and tear part.. no $$ to pay JJ.. sighz

and as i type this blog the cursor in my laptop keeps moving to random places and i have to retype…GOD!!!

is this like a joke all the electronic stuff ard me is breaking down……

even my nds can’t read the latest games and i have been trying to fix the prob but to no avail…

need a IT revival…

+.+

2009-04-03T02:23:00.001+08:00

SOT started! and it’s the 4th day and i am already down with a fever ..hehe

Slept for a while just now and now my brain can’t seem to slow down and rest..

This sat would be our EP launch! wonder how many friends will come and buy…=)

after which we have rehearsals for Laoshi’s concert and now rehearsing for CSS as well!! Finals on the 12th apr which is Easter..sighz…can’t attend i guess

Then we have filming.. then we have sheng shiong next mon…

Na was saying: ‘you really trying to stretch your limits huh…” she was mentioning that the word Capacity really pops out to her this week and i guess it will be a test for every single one of us at SOT..

I am trying very hard to stay awake.. though the ministry times are really good.. Presence of God is strong and memories of mission trip starts to flood back… Singing p n w and hearing the word every single day .. isn’t it just like like in TW ? except after that i get to go shilin ye shi while i have jamming till late nights here =.=

With that thought.. suddenlly it din seem that difficult after all… except till when the assignments start piling..

We get to sign a Code of Conduct which apparently last for a lifetime.. hehe well… I guess it’s all good especially when this period would be a time to tear down all the false walls of denial and let God enter in..

Although PD’s drawing was really amusing but isn’t it so true that sometimes we let Holy Spirit be in us but it’s compartmentalised till some areas are somehow left untouched even by God.. For He is a gentle spirit which doesn’t want to impose on us what He wants for us.. I guess i have been escaping some truths but i feel very encouraged that there’s someone behind me encouraging me as well every single day =)

till then…

XOXO

WOW….

2009-03-20T12:14:00.000+08:00

=.= without much luck, my new blog template barely lasted for days without Angel messaging me.. “ what happened to your blog??”

Phew… if everyone can see my apr schedule.. it looks something like this…

this does not even include my teaching and serving schedules, not to even mention SOT>..

well…. please pray for me!! Going to run on God –powered batteries….

DFC EP is going to be out on the 4th APRIL!!!

We have a few events on that day and do give you utmost support if you have been rooting for us since the days of SUPERBAND..

Check out the details here!!

think when the IR is up the floating stage will look much nicer!!!

it’s a luxury to just sit down and eat nowadays… so i can’t help but take pics of HKC and mustafa!

I really need like more time to upload all the pics and videos i took… till then…

Lee Bros Concert

2009-03-07T15:39:00.001+08:00

well, this event will keep me really busy for these 2 months!

really glad to have the opportunity to sing for our beloved teachers and we are going to see the stars up close and personal!! SHOW!!!! hehe

we might be donning stage crew apparels which is the one of the many things i am looking forward too…

well in school now..with twitts is not hard to tell our whereabouts nowadays when we can summarise it in a sentence.. anyway the windies are working very hard to make sure there is no chemical reactions and that the production will go on smoothly..

till 4th apr…..

Brand New Template

2009-03-06T08:05:00.000+08:00

Trying to test out a font that can appear in all browsers in all comps cos i realised the font turns out differently in the office comp =.=

Guess i have progressed to a blogging rookie from a blogging idiot.. thaha… managed to figure out the html page and htarted editing since 6am.. yah u din see wrongly .. and NOT because i din sleep but i woke up early and manage to stay awake till now..

Think there’s still room for improvement cos notepad is kinda tiny.. thus from now onwards all my updates will have tiny pics.. =b

pls tag your comments friends! hehe.. yes June i will try to update more.. guess i will be more motivated to do so now…

P.S. Found out from friends that the Blackberry Curve is only 2.5G.. thus i am wishing for a Blackberry Bold now…

p.p.s.still a bit lazy to upload my pics since now people tag instantly on facebook with their blackberries!!! so please go to my facebook page for photo updates!

=.= time to start work.. parts here i come!!!!

Blogging

2009-02-26T10:55:00.001+08:00

oohh… testing out my new place to edit my blog… well i know some of you would say at least i started updating again!! ..well well… many things have happened lately… as usual huh… really dunno where to begin with all the back logging..hahaha

hehe my new wishlist….

ohh time to work…

Photo Updates..

2009-02-11T00:41:00.004+08:00

Really soorry for the late updates... wow it has been really eventful the past months but i kind of thank facebook for the latest tagging of photos... i kind of became lazy and dont really dig out my phone camera.... and it's quite blurry at times...=.= time for a new wishlist...

Watched Benjamin Button with my new fave peeps which was totally a tear jerker at the end and guess this update is going backwards as well!!
This was taken at Plaza Sing during CNY

Haha was really bored after my 2 renuion steamboats and i really wanted to digest my food... dragged bro down to river angbao and met up with Alvin, Clement, Daphne and this's one of the only photos i took... hmm was i tagged?? haha

Pantty's fave dessert place with snow ice as good as the one in Shi Lin...oh man..... i miss yeshi!!!

On NewYear's Day which was bro's birthday as well!!! we celebrated with McGriddles at 4am...

Haha contented yet sleepy bro

The happier times counting down at Vivo...

The cold room which we waited and Panda wanted to go in and try... brrrrr

Nancy pretending she's not drunk..hahhaha

Panda:" Is my hairclip pretty?" ..goofing ard at the Mykii bar at holland v with the bvs....

Pantty at Orchard Rd

At the chinese album recording!

Haha that's Shan screaming in ticklish pain in her heart...

Twin as the Egyptian Princess in the Christmas Drama 08

Me with cute Christian!!

Haha we look really tall in this pic...

Many many more updates... better format coming up!!!

XOXO ... ... 2009

2009-01-29T02:51:00.002+08:00

HAPPY MOO YEAR to everyone!!!

2009 so far has been a yr of awakening...

New serial watched: Gossip Girl
-The dvd casing did not seem that interesting but it turned out more and more people around me watched it and seems that it really appeals to teens..
-The content might be deemed inappropriate but it may be quite real to some extend.. other than the Upper East siders extravagant lifestyle and the place they live in... is like wow...
-Watched the 2 seasons already and waiting for the latest episodes to come...

Was in a book reading craze the last few months but momentum for it seemed to have dropped again...

Latest NDS game played : Puzzle Bobble... hahahah getting quite good at it so maybe next time i can use one token and last the whole game in arcade...

That was appetizers and now the main course...

DFC working on our music projects and we hope to bring to you good music soon..
Still working out details but really praying for how it will all work out cos it will lead to the next big question..

SOT? Already Fuchen and Youcong has signed up... i really missed studying but still dunno whether the former will clash in certain events...=.=

I miss TAIWAN and FUKUOKA... so far whenever i wished it happened one way or another but i really miss these places alot... so i wish again....

SONGS!! How melodies can be taken away from you shows how God uses others if you don't do anything about it...*_*

The latest revelation is about how God was Shang Di that all China people worshipped during 2,500 BC already! The intrinsic way the chinese characters revealed stories from the bible was mind blowing as well.. Enuff said...

Started exercising today! walked half an hour from mac east coast to old town cafe and i cycled! for 2 hours with people amazingly gathered in this combination.. couldn't have imagined before but everything's possible with God.. love ya all ^_^
The breeze was really cooling and i kinda love cycling now... want to do it again and again!! Nature is certainly God's way of speaking to me!

Will be uploading more pics but my hp's file transfer seems to malfunction all the time... guess i have to wait for people to tag me on facebook again...

haha till then...

p.s thanks panda for that 'surprise' place you took me just now.. kinda scary to go in that hour which i chickened out and wanted to head home.. but thanks for trying..hahahahhha

p.p.s. changeling is nice!!! but i really felt like throwing watever i have at the captain!!!! very provoking!! rawr...

Christmasy

2008-12-16T04:04:00.005+08:00

Christmas is coming around the corner!!!
Wow time really flies when i thought of Christmas last year...

I always enjoy the candlelight services ...especially at the part when after the drama we light up the candles and pass on the light... the effect at Expo would be the most astounding as we sing O Holy Night and Silent Night.. the sudden calming effect and atmosphere seems to transport us back to more then 2000 years ago when Christ was born.. W.O.W...

Christmas is always the season when you walk along Orchard Rd.. You will really want to walk it down with your loved ones to experience that magical atmosphere together...
Every year is a different experience for me... Looking back, most of it i remember .. the crazy photo taking with friends and cg mates have been really fun...

Hehe usually I would come up with a Christmas wish list.. but i decided to come up with something really different this year...
WHAT I WILL GIVE MY FRIENDS IF I AM A MILLIONAIRE

1) Starting with My Family... I will buy an apartment of course... complete with Christmas tree and a fake fireplace..okie maybe not the fake fireplace but i want my Christmas tree back... many years ago some funny bro thought the glass christmas balls were chocolate balls and he bit it and went hospital. The next day, the christmas disappeared from my house...

2) Panda.. erm... I guess you want a Mac Book Pro and PSP and a brand new PRADA wallet.. No problem! Use my cheque book =b

3) Shan.. IMAC. But you will be my personal sound engineer help me make my demos..haha

4) N307.. Sorry i really dun remember the new number again... E348? 384? =.=
Every one's wish list on the gift exchange...hahaha

5) All close gal friends will get something from Tiff and Co.and guys will get erm... psp? or Hugo Boss?

I knew I can spend my million in a day =b

So please pray for me to become a billionaire..

Another great Christmas drama coming up! On 24th and 25th of Dec.. Do msg me if you are interested to come =)

Old 2 with BY2 ...hahaha

Pantty found this cool place that sells the best Mango shaved ice next to Shilin Ye Shi!!!
At Far East Level One... They give cool names to the different flavours as well ..hehe

The mood to take photos are back again... watch out folks..haha

A fellow blogger sits next to another one so the former gets shock being in the latter's candid photo.. hahaha

Reminiscence

2008-12-03T00:22:00.006+08:00

1: apprehension of a Platonic idea as if it had been known in a previous existence2 a: recall to mind of a long-forgotten experience or fact b: the process or practice of thinking or telling about past experiences3 a: a remembered experience b: an account of a memorable experience —often used in plural4: something so like another as to be regarded as an unconscious repetition, imitation, or survival

synonyms see memory

wow... 2008 is coming to an end quickly... my apologies dear viewers... time has passed so quickly that it's kinda scary... and so many things has happened for the past few months... where am i heading??

My revelation from playing Mario DS ..hehe

After getting stuck at level 8 for days... i kind of forgot about the cheat code button at the bottom of the start page and thus i gave it a try... and wow... suddenly i could be invincible, jump as high till the extend i can stay afloat and i can kill all the jumping tortoises and mushrooms effortlessly.. i seem to have 99 lives all the time but i still get killed if i fall into the fire or get squashed by stones... something i will be really cautious of usually while playing the game...

Like spiderman's uncle's saying.."with great power comes great responsibilties..."

You know how the bible tells us of the all the mistakes the biblical characters made and wise man Solomon's proverbs enables and empowers us the ability not to go the route to destruction, but us men thinking we grew smarter turned greedy and wanted more... ended up with the same route again....

we don't seem to totally internalise the word at all ... Because of Adam, everyone has the sin nature to go wayward (not murdering robbing kind, but lying, being unforgiving etc.) which happened almost every other day....

Sometimes we can't even forgive ourselves but only Someone even greater than our existence can...

That's the reason why everyone has a void in the heart thinking that there's is a power greater than ourselves out there...

I never believe in the Big Bang cos it's really too much of a coincidence for my existence... and the evolution theory? yah... why by now i don't have wings and can fly cos i think is more convenient for us to travel that way..

That's why I chose Jesus.. His story has no loophole as yet... if not the whole Christian faith would crumble.. His presence is strongly felt and miracles and wonders are still happening... enuff said.

I am pretty much logical and straightforward person... sometimes being straightforward you tend to hurt others easily... but i still cry easily watching drama or romantic movies... I built up a wall trying to be strong in times of adversities but i really wish i could just let down my guard and pour out all my feeling without getting hurt...

I really want to thank a friend who i let into my life... Without him i wouldn't realise what i am building but i am really learning how to trust another human being...

and even Jesus...through many things i have learnt through times of adversity .. just like gold, purity is tested through fire...

would it really withstand the testing of fire or would it just crumble overnight? only time will tell.......

to fill in the gap of the past 2 months...here are some highlights through my camera phone...

the dfc gals at our drummer zhenzhen's birthday celebration with superband mates...

me wearing a mui look alike top with mui at the golden hit awards..haha

me with peach's glasses ..testing them for fun after bumping into hk and her at cine..

my beloved UV 169 students practicing for their exam... their videos coming up real soon...

haha two chiongsters at shokudo..

really happy for dear june and brandon tying the knot ! haha same expression on our faces.. speechlessly happy =)

it was a great AC conference!!! parting moments with Panda and June... somehow.. i only have 2 photos of it in my camera...=.=

Thank you Panda!!! =) My best friend and companion!! huhuhuhuhuuuuu

Here are shots i like ....

at starbucks Changi Airport....

and my fave parting shot...........

LOL

Cloud Nine

2008-10-22T05:48:00.002+08:00

There's many things I can thank God for....

At least I don't stay in a roach infested home like the show on Mon night...

At least I am not in one of those mud made slums in Africa...

PK's message on fourth dimension living is really powerful...

If even distilled water can form crystals just based on the words we say , think , believe and see ...

and with our body made up of 70% water... Can you imagine the power of everyone's thoughts and words??!!

Something happened just hours ago... I just can't help but react this way... Sometimes the past still haunts you and you just have to remind yourself the situation is really much different each time... Love conquers all ...... Agape love at least....

Really happy for Kelly's new album launch!!! some how i think it will turn out great!!

Many thoughts but think time to zzzzzzzzzzzzz.... More updates soon!! =)

I want to be a millionaire...

2008-10-15T02:25:00.002+08:00

Hehe who does not?

Was skimming true Forbes magazine and there are like 400 BILLIONAIRES in US... =.=

Dropping out 1 million accidentally from their pockets could just be so easy...

They tithe a million??? WOW... wish i can do that....

Just like King Solomon in bible times right.. he can build a temple made of gold.. all by himself...

Unfortunately i was born with a silver spoon in my mouth which din last for long till my bro was born.........

Guess I have been through the best and worst times...

Praying for my dad now.. hope everything would turn out fine... Just want to thank the angels that popped by occasionally... can't thank them enough...

Last week was really pretty tiring.. I din really get to rest at all ever since SB finals ended cos the next 2 days i taught HC sabbaticals in my school which is like 6 hours in a row but guess what.. my fellow SB mates turned students haha Jon and Hiroshi..!! Hehe really feel like uploading their end products cos it's pretty hilarious teaching them ...
J is really like a young CL in terms of his lameness haha and H is like a young HK-san...

And then... I had a real action packed wed evening rushing to and fro and my wallet felt a strong pinch $$ ..hate taking cabs like that nowadays.. been really trying to avoid but sighz.. no one can help me.. one could but.. sigh
Panda could attend PM while i had to miss it in the end... sianz... =.=

Panda is out almost every night these two weeks =)
We went to have dessert at 2am (name of the dessert bar) and happened to order his favourite dark chocolate.. and he was laughing to himself so happily you would think he found gold...

THANK YOU FRIENDS ^_^

2008-10-06T03:54:00.002+08:00

Thanks for all dear friends who messaged me words of encouragement and those who really called and support DFC in our very last round of Superband ...

We are already glad that we are able to present all 4 songs which we painstakingly prepared over the weeks... including all the rehearsal, imaging, consultation, video shoots and stuff which made me soooo tired that i will hit the sack zzzz once i reach home every night for the past weeks... which is why this blog is kinda neglected for a while =.=

Really want to thank friends who supported DFC ALL THE WAY!
Been falling quite sick as well for the previous weeks and was feeling pretty drained.. Other than getting the strength from God, i realised every single sms and true genuine affirmation from friends really counted... My sources of motivation...

Panda and Zhen zhen might know what i am really getting at.. of course there are some disappointments.. but i am trying very hard not to do a "Fann Wong" moment... (the famous one liner where she said, 'we are just colleagues, not friends' )

Well.. true friendship prevails... lets see the peeps who have been appearing in my camera these moments...

Well.. That was us at imaging for SF3.. one of our best performance!! where we were all moved to tears after hearing the judges comment =)

While waiting for the other groups to finish the photo shoot...

Well, how can I look so pretty without the help of their magic hands?!! a big thank you to AW and Mel for helping us look great on screen for months !!!

Girl power!!

Our final family potrait... we were reminded of Narnia when we wore this outfit.. (=.= din know CL hid behind me and zhenzhen ... how to see ur prada suit bro... tsktsk )

DFC ROCKS!!!

Life....

2008-09-17T11:44:00.003+08:00

It's been a while since i last updated..

Been really sick for awhile and i am still on medication...

What a year.... seems that after my birthday... the twist of events seems to be too overwhelming...

To begin with... at the strike of 12 on my birthday, i was sitted at a friend's wake.. She's greatly missed.... Her beautiful voice and her unforgettable smile.. Guess she really encourages me alot with her gungho attitude towards life despite what she has been through...

Been reflecting alot about everything... Guess i have lots more to work on... ...

Dad's going to be away for a while... what will happen to us? I still can't bear to think about what's going to happen this coming year..

My only encouragement is genuine friends who are not two faced people that say one thing and mean the other... i am seriously sick of people hiding truths behind me, or pretending to be an angel then stab me from behind...

If you really know what's going on in my life you would realise i am wounded enough... please give me a break...

Thanks Panda... you know the right way to comfort me... i really appreciate all that you have done..

Waiting for real angels to save me....

on a lighter note... thanks for lovely peeps that remembered my special day and celebrated for me!! really appreaciate all of youuu....

Many updates............

2008-08-25T16:13:00.004+08:00

Wow... seems like a really loonnng time i checked my blog and stuff.. been reallly busy i guess..
plus the morning PMs i have been hitting the sack once i reach home for the past 2 weeks and i was down with bad throat ulcer and breathlessness... kinda forced to take a rest for a few days.. lootttts of photos to update.. heee

we celebrated teachers' day in advance at lwssom yesterday and this year there's retro theme...
haha and ws laoshi outfit seriously reminds us of 12 lotus's "小飞侠“！！

24th August: Weekends are pretty precious these days... my really rare saturday night out in town!!!!

been a while since i visited Billy Bombers ^_^

Hmm this blog entry took like days...=.= Below are 2 DFC pics we took having fun... i still have like erm hundreds of photos.. from the last QF to now we are preparing for our SFs.... Till the next time i have more time at the comp... tata

September Blues...

2008-08-05T03:29:00.005+08:00

Gosh how time flies though the past week time has been crawling like a tortoise =.=

man.. almost another year has passed... been really eventful.. and i found this new character from Sanrio! really timely huh

his name is PANKUNCHI!! hehe a panda that hates eating bamboo shoots and loves 'ang mo' pastries... am i prophetic or wat..hahah i saw the story abt this panda after i told my fairytale story lor..hehe

erm this hello kitty cake from polar is definitely not to scale.. but lim bok hai and dr chan both said they will get this cake for my birthday so i am expecting it ..hmmm (dr chan owns polar lorr=.=)

i think like the black ipod classic for my present *HINT* hahaha yah.. my current ipod cracked and i think if i put a pic of ipod touch, dun think the chance of having it is high...=b and actually for the same reason i am not using my p1i now.. i dun think i will really use the wifi functions anyway...

a pair of nice adiddas respect me shoes? been ditching my heels lately... only wear them for service nowadays .. till i get a nicer pair of platforms for daily use... ( even my mom say that pair is auntie =.=)

haha some nice clothes? mommy jace.. i help u save some money hor.. u just give me one day shopping spree @ llash.multiply.com can liao..hahahahah

today was a therapeutic day.. woke up, had kimchi with mommy jace and then i walked to far east to get my nails done...
look wat i found at far east's princessa shop!!! bling bling almost anything!! and my fav kitty of course... saw a few nice rings as well ^_^

had my ice caramel macchiato at the newly opened starbucks right outside pacific plaza and off i went to qf7...

today the windies sat where the pink forest people are..hee

here's our photo with them!!!

a pic of my nails while waiting for the result show... thank God i don't have a habit of biting my nails if not it will be gone by qf8!!

time for windies to jam again tomolo...

Counting down.....

2008-08-02T04:13:00.005+08:00

either time has been passing by soooooo slowly, or i have become more efficient..

all within 1.5 hour, i went esplanade to return books, went plaza to get abrsm books for students and bought a whoolee lot of kitty stuff today!!!!

check out my spoils!!

here are some shots taken from our video shoot...

and not forgetting to thanks Huan Cheng for the great treat at Al Dente!!
plus our our outing to Esplanade for SA's dance concert.. my juniors were there to perform!! so coOL!!!

gtg work~!!!

UPDATES

2008-07-29T02:01:00.003+08:00

missing my panda... ...

here are some picture updates...

@ QF 5 me with Hideaki-san..
Here's one with Mui
Not forgetting WS Laoshi who came to support us!!! so touched...

hehe playing ard in the office with CL's fake glasses..
@ the airport on my way to buy a story book to read while waiting for panda to come home!!!

my last starbucks and cake before panda leaves for tk...

hehe me and mavis with angela behind doing a funny face.. champs simply love the camera!!
hello kitty paradise!!!!!!!!!!!! i finally went to the chinatown point kitty shop... so spoilt for choice.. really feel like opening one shop myself =.=

my last treat from korea.. yesss i ate it alll by myself this time... hahahaa

me and twin in a loonng soundcheck
bving around...

me with zapalang at QF6!!
us at the mossh pit support the other bands...

hehe here's Noel trying to eat the cone on Eunice's birthday cake..hahahahaa

LER Open House

2008-07-21T03:34:00.004+08:00

Here are some of the pics taken on Saturday 19th July =)
Here's Weizhenie and Meixin performing an item right at the doorstep of our school, facing the chicken rice store, jap food and kolo mee.. hehe
Our signboards appeared today, thanks to swordsman!! really touched by his efforts ^_^ They are really nice!!!
Here's the five of us right at the reception..hehe
plus SGN
Me with Felicia and Muriel

SGN, JJ and me!
I seriously can start selling these photos..hahahah
he insisted to take pics with this flower stand given by yanzi..

more photos on QF 5 coming up!!

it's like 3.48am now =.= was watching 命中注定 while waiting for hair to dry...

really nneeed to rest..... but brain is still running wild...

Getting ready for QF5

2008-07-19T04:14:00.005+08:00

Here's my week while preparing for QF 5..

Had steamboat with feli, laoba and hellokitty lao ma..haha and ally and william =)
on Sunday after service.. before LER meeting

On the mondays we are not competing, we are still @ Mediacorp supporting the other bands..

Went for our haircut at Colour Bar =) Rewarding ourselves with starbucks after that.. hehe

We had our VT shoot on wednesday and here are the gals posing...

hehe CL talking on the phone....

we were wondering why the long wait on the bus, we realised our forest bros were ng-ing.... in reservoir

mui posing before the bros start "running"

hehe here's a photo of them...

rewarding ourselves with Carl's Jr after the shoot...

Photo Blogging..

2008-07-11T01:58:00.006+08:00

Here are some pics from QF3 @ Mediacorp...

dinner break before we report back to the holding area....
found DJ JT @ canteen after his work..
me and mui in her trenchcoat.. yes is THAT cold in the theatre ..esp during rehearsals.. brrrr
Hehe waiting for my hair to be done .. in the female toilet haahaha dun ask me why we use this room.. behind me is boris stoning..
purple ranger, blue ranger and pink ranger...

and FELI is back!!! hehehe part of the chiongsters went into action again since there's no bv pract this week....
We went to Liang Seah St's Lai Lai Beef Place...

ever ready to smile at the camera is my mummy jace..=.=
joyce and twin!!

he's stuck with his bowl of soup and spoon so i finally have a chance.. hahaha
after that they tried to bring me feli and twin to a 'secret place' but unfortunately the place is closed due to a private function and in the end all of them brought me to villa bali.. even feli went there already =.= it was my first time here and i really like it!

us with our dessert wine...
joyce with her chicken wing...

panda coming back!

LOVE.....

2008-07-10T01:57:00.004+08:00

love having a day of rest ......

today was a good sabbath for me lying on my bed.. though was cos of really bad cramps =( but i had a chance to stay home and even eat mummy's dinner before i left for work... it was really a much needed one after one whole week of working and jamming non stop...

love DFC!

though the preparations and the sacrifices are great.. ohhhh unless the reporters are reading my blog.. how would they knoe some of us stayed to make the signboards =.=
Nevertheless looking at the group picture... it is a great experience, getting to know other musicians.. DFC has been seeing E alot since our first photo shoot, mv and all the QFs.. They are unexpectedly much friendlier than how they look and really funny as well =) I want to get one of their tees too! hehe

"FRIENDS"....

2008-07-06T20:37:00.004+08:00

just venting my sianess......

it's been a realllly long and tiring week.. juggling work, jamming, and serving...

it's okay if u dun turn up for my superband quarter finals, but it's another thing when u want to come and then be choosy abt the tickets or give me super last min replies when coordinating the 60 tickets is really the last thing our band want to worry abt..

it's okay if u have other plans but sending me photos of food when i am tired out working the afternoon away with a million things on my mind is totally not helping...

it's okay if u do not have nice things to say abt me but if u are jealous or envious or filled with watever rage u have abt me, u can help yourself by NOT visiting my blog cos this page is dedicated to REAL friends.

I can't believe i am doing wat i am doing now printing and decorating this on our own. I was shocked at the reply i got when people know what i am doing =.=

FINALLY suddenly an angel popped out.. thanks CHLOE!!!!

HAHAHAHHAHAHHA

2008-07-05T02:48:00.002+08:00

i think that's how i sounded this morning.. hehe
Great svc at jw.. PMike is really annointed.. at the end of the service, his wife came on stage to say bye to the students.. and he was breathing into her to make her laugh... kinda cool actually... making your wife laugh in a spirit filled way instead of telling lame jokes (sorry lame jokers..=b)

wow another long day.. but thank God for the recharged time in the morning that i can last the day.. though in the afternoon when i was eating my basil leaf with minced chicken rice.. i was kinda half asleep =.=

another long weekend ahead..

and a really long monday ... wow...

i am seriously waiting for my daughter to be born.. hahaha saw another baby in the lift in ps today.. really cute!!~
uncle asked who's the father =.=.. well according to fatherly PMeng he should be:
1) one that loves me enough to protect me spiritually, physically, mentally, emotionally..

haha points below by kitty sia
2) taller than me (even with my heels on)
3) generous (was abt to say rich but no point if u are rich and stingy =.=)
4) humorous (PMike style..haha)
5) wise (wisdom is really very impt..which is able to cover understanding, common sense and knowledge)
6) communicate!!!
7) like to do household chores (haha...wash toilet, dishes, mopping)
8) can cook
9) musical
10) loves hello kitty (at least not bind and hate her =()
11) like to watch movies and hang out (think i cannot tahan sleep early people.. )
12) loves my family...
13) loves shopping (not just to shop for his stuff kind =.=)
14) well groomed and sharp looking...
(to be continued)
i guess point 1 will empower him to do point 2) to 14) lol

off to dreamland..

IF...........

2008-07-04T01:17:00.002+08:00

guess life is filled with lots of "what ifs"...

If earth is a size of a golf ball and the largest star in our universe is the size of the largest stadium in the world and our galaxy is just some tiny blop in the creation of God... why are we doing what we are doing???

The realisation of how great God is... his breath produces the sun the moon and wadever he speaks into existence... only mean how tiny we are... and yet Christ lives in us.. Such a huge God and he chooses to stay in our hearts... think i will never figure this out in this lifetime...

Something closer to what i can think of... i really thank PM for praying for something i realise is seriously being buried really deeep somewhere in my heart.. when he asked me to just speak out how i felt, it was't even really abt hatred anymore.. it was just.." God.. why me...."

sobz... literally... tears streaming down as i type... even with Xiao Zhu on tv..

If this's the correct choice why am i so sad..
If only.. ewei on'tdei geaei
If only we can teleport..

Joy of the day: Carrying Clare in my arms.. i seriously heard her vocal warmups.. she was certainly doing slides, practicing her vocal placement.. (3 months old) and i made her laugh ^_^ sighz.. waiting for my daughter to be born...

Behind the scenes

2008-07-03T15:16:00.002+08:00

check out the video at video.mediacorptv.sg =)

=。= Photo Updates =。=

2008-07-02T13:50:00.002+08:00

@ Waraku with Champs!! SS with his chawanmushi

DFC with DBC hehehe

Check out the new Hello Kitty Sushi collection, with nice ceramic sake bottles and green tea cups =) @ Sanrio Takashimaya.... i miss japan...

29th June.. it's baby's birthday on the 30th but the students prepared a cake for her in advance..

30th June @ Mediacorp ..DFC went to support the next 8 groups of SB and we were sitting with DF's fans..

lots of jamming to do...
think QF3 is going to be really interesting and excitin!!

2008-06-26T01:24:00.002+08:00

UNFINISHED BUSINESS
Quote - 'You can't always get what you want' - Mick Jagger

You're going to love this;
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We don't live in a perfect world.
Learn to live with imperfect situations, unresolved issues and unfulfilled expectations without losing your great spirit.
There's always something that isn't the way you want it.
Get happy in spite of this.
As you deal with it, stay happy, not upset.
If the unresolved problem gets you, then it's won.
Stay on top even when it's trying to get you down, and you'll win.
This is Christianity at its best.
Staying up in a down situation.
That's leadership.

Stepping out with you,

Phil Pringle

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Guess most of us are trying to stay up all the time...
I think tinkerbelle was rite.. i am not alone.... literally...

hearing friends in the exact same situation scares me.. u mean there's more of them out there????!!!

and they are in positions u never expect them to be..

Sighz.. i miss my zone's women conference and i still miss Dr Edwin Cole's men conference...

Crossroads again.. =.=

Thank you FRIENDS!!! DFC made it to QF3

2008-06-25T03:40:00.002+08:00

Think this picture says it all... Thanks to all that came down personally to support.. your presence really meant much to me!
Uncle and Aunt, Sis and Daryl (who was at the mosh pit!!) Angel and friends and my students from UV 167! Not forgetting all the champs that came as well =) The most touching part was to see WS laoshi just minutes before we go on stage!! To the ignorant fools out there, I wouldn't be able to stand on stage without him who gave me a chance to teach 8 years ago. He was the one who saw the potential in me then and yest he had cancelled his writer's session just to rush over to wish us good luck on time... Me and CL was almost in tears..His affirmation is all that matters.
Not forgetting my daddy GOD in HEAVEN, whom all judgement would belong to HIM.

A big thank you to those who smsed me before the competition.. People like Jean, Merv,Careen,Janet,Jerry,Euzanne,Zer,Shuwen,Jeremy,Alvin,Weiyang,Michelle and Uncle..(in chronological order)

Well, i kind of realised how previously friends who joined the various competition feels.. SI, Superstar, Live the Dream etc. You wouldn't realise how your presence as a fan matters and how it really helps the performer to do even better...
Well at least i have tried to be a fan too with my glitter sign boards......^_^

And we are going to have SHOW LUO's posters pasted all over the school!!! with his signature somemore!! i feel like koping one leh... haha paste at the wall i am facing now in the room...

Ric @ Waraku

2008-06-20T03:25:00.001+08:00

hahaha

Counting down to 23rd June...

2008-06-19T19:09:00.002+08:00

DFC's first live Quarter Finals @ Mediacorp! and we are the opening band!!!

For more details please go to

http://www.mediacorptv.sg/ch/buzzdetail/EDC080617-0000002

Yah.. It's LIVE on Channel U at 8pm and all tics are taken up!
If you can't be there physically, your votes can.. hahaah

anyway, many people have been asking me the same questions regarding the competition, so do visit superband website @

http://superband.mediacorptv.sg if u want to find out more...

Getting pretty excited actually.. i actually got more glitter on my nails ( yuppp it's been a long while since i went for mani and pedi.. thanks to my angel!! ^_^ ) Hope they actually WILL zoom in on my nails when i play hahaha

Thank God for PM at JW.. i finally pulled myself out of the house on wed and i din regret it at all... really reminds me of hollywood days with all those powerhouse music... I will always remember 2 people .. 一粒，and ivory cos they were the people who waited for me @ hollywood and brought me to powerhouse and taught me my foundations.. not forgetting 大哥 of course.. lol

hmm time to go waraku already!!! sighz... i really want to eat beef and salmon from sunday onwards hahaha

more candid pics and videos will be uploaded later...

Check out our latest VIDEO!!!

2008-06-16T19:59:00.002+08:00

Da Feng Chui Video available at http://video.mediacorptv.sg/

Photo Updates...

2008-06-16T00:31:00.004+08:00

here are the long awaited updates.... =b
okay i finally see the tags...
YUP baby u gotta be the superfan cos u are the PRESIDENT lorrr =.=
and hi erm.. stranger...

18th June: it was Euzanne's birthday!!! We were at a restauarant @ Central eating Japanese Soba/Udon

That's the birthday girl on the right... haha catch her taking the Bungy ride @ Clark Quay in my videos =)

19th June: After CG, we decided to go to walk the park connectors from Hort Park, all the way to Vivocity... ...

This is the bridge... ... after Henderson waves...

14th June: @ Mediacorp canteen after our practice.. here's the replay of the superband photo shoot snapshots haha

Me and Yong Tau Fu

discussing what to wear in office.........

candid ....

15th June: Chinese church morning haha.. think vic (right) doesn't know abt this blog i guess.. so i am uploading this pic.. Thank God for a great service today!!!

after teaching today went to Sakae to eat sushi after reaching there to realise my ta pau sushi was just RICE ONLY thanks to some "helpful" friends without realising the hungry me was really thinking abt it since the start of my class...rrr.. God still loves you... ... maybe your house in heaven will be made of rice... haha kidding.

after that was walking around Bugis Village to get some ideas where to get matching clothes for DFC and then hanged out @ Starbucks for a while with Master Wu Gui and Luo Han.

Every June seems to be a turning point in my life... ... tot i will be spared this year but i guess stretching mentally, spiritually, emotionally is an annual event... With thousands thoughts bombarding my head now.. i really dunno where to begin.. even the diary i bought the other day.. i have yet penned anything ... feeling a verbal vomit and diarrhoea coming...

紀存希 or Dylan?

2008-06-10T03:29:00.004+08:00

Think this is the question on all female champs in office... at least minus the Xian Gus... hehehe

命中注定我愛你 is the top rating tv series in tw now... Though the plot is erm pretty out of moral values from the start.. but it's really surprisingly tear jerking.. with 纪念品 involved.. boohoo!

HAHA =.= thought that baby said that she would choose Dylan but in the end... her blog says : 紀存希
i like the quote from the teacher in the show "有故事的人才能创作出璀璨的作品“

我的下段故事呢？？

She may have deleted the photos, threw away the coin, and returned the ring etc.. and accept Dylan.. but probably because after all that she has been through, she probably want to start afresh, not to stay a 便利贴 anymore.. but isit that easy ....

Sometimes that gamble is really too big to make and really.. tiring...

with a revelation that people around me having the same predicament, i only have one verdict: I really miss Dr Edwin Louis Cole, and his manhood conferences!!
apparently men need to read maps as well as having regular check ups to be a man or they will get out of hand =.= while women suffer at the expense....

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was at Border's yesterday and was reading Sophie Kinsella's new novel, Remember Me?
here's the synopsis

With the same wicked humor and delicious charm that have won her millions of devoted fans, Sophie Kinsella, author of the #1 New York Times bestseller Shopaholic & Baby, returns with an irresistible new novel and a fresh new heroine who finds herself in a life-changing and utterly hilarious predicament….

When twenty-eight-year-old Lexi Smart wakes up in a London hospital, she's in for a big surprise. Her teeth are perfect. Her body is toned. Her handbag is Vuitton. Having survived a car accident—in a Mercedes no less—Lexi has lost a big chunk of her memory, three years to be exact, and she's about to find out just how much things have changed.

Somehow Lexi went from a twenty-five-year-old working girl to a corporate big shot with a sleek new loft, a personal assistant, a carb-free diet, and a set of glamorous new friends. And who is this gorgeous husband—who also happens to be a multimillionaire? With her mind still stuck three years in reverse, Lexi greets this brave new world determined to be the person she…well, seems to be. That is, until an adorably disheveled architect drops the biggest bombshell of all.

Suddenly Lexi is scrambling to catch her balance. Her new life, it turns out, comes complete with secrets, schemes, and intrigue. How on earth did all this happen? Will she ever remember? And what will happen when she does?

~~ haha i really think that the part where Lexi woke up and had is like every single woman's dream.. read almost half the book.. hmm maybe can drop by tomolo to finish the other half =b

Hehe was at suki sushi after work with baby!! i DIN eat the meguro hor.. borrowed it from Baby for photoshoot........ it was potato salad, agedashi tofu and tamago handroll ^_^

Bought a similar bunny handphone flashing chain with baby.. the cashier @ cheers complimented my handphone chains lor.. "wow.. very nice leh" hahahaha

Though i have work still... i kind of enjoying life abit now.. b4 the QF commences and session with WISE =.=

nitezzzzzzzz

大风吹 - SUPERBAND SHOWCASE AT IMM

2008-06-08T19:30:00.001+08:00

check this out =b

Reality Check

2008-06-08T02:38:00.004+08:00

=.=.........
Had a long read at Yellow Ranger's blog...
We are like thinking the other side of the pasture is greener without realising that both sides of the pastures are as green... ...

or the weeds are as rotten on either side as well =b

but seriously, u REALLY got out of it fast... and i really pretty much admire what you are doing...
i am like wondering WHY on earth i did this BSc Business until today... 4 yrs... when i could have gotten my piano dip.. moved on in music producing... jap lang... driving lessons with the $$ i put in.. on even just doing OCU degree after my MDIS adv dip. ... i am like back at the starting point again.... which can never be erased biologically.. (my hands are beginning to look old =( ..boohoo)

Like Masaki said, age is just a number.. how consolling..hehe

but the happy thing still is (we can't change wat has passed anyway =.=)
I HAVE FINISHED MY EXAMS!!!

i realised that in the midst of my busyness trying to study and teach and serve and jam for SB,
i really appreciate the encouraging smses and emails, msn etc from my beloved peeps from
N307, baby, xx, mommy, students..

Thank God for all of you.. even if you may not know HIM personally.. God still brought you into my life ^_^

My mommies went to a romantic place without me lor... =(
Suddenly... i have lots of empty pockets of free time and whenever i am free i will just fish out my DS lite..hahaha
The thought of after work i can just R&R without thinking abt studying just thrills me...

Reviewed list of things to be done:
1) Go esplanade and choose repertoire for dip and piano duet/trio?? haha go go power!!
2) Check out jap lang sch
3) Adv Theory -.-
4) DEMOSSSSS
5) Pack my cupboards (from home to office)
6) Dance lessons
7) meet friends + the babies i missed attending their showers..
8) haha plus practicing all my SB songs...

here are the photo updates...

Tweety Bird! Comes in a flash and disappears in a flash lor... is like barely months and she has flapped her wings and flew.. been great having her around though.. she has brought laughter (literally we were laughing at her antics =b) to all of us.. will miss you!!!

hehe daph and masaki @ our usual hangout HKC.. though i think you are going to kill me but hehehe you gals are still pretty.. we were waiting to watch KungFU PANDA!! really funny lor.. liked it very much.. esp plus i have life size pandas in front and on the right of me while watching... LOL

Hehe to Merv i am always a entrepeuneur cos somehow i will make a profit (out of him ...haha) ... i got myself a bowl of ramen for .. oh yah!!! i recalled... paying for his prata... think i made 200%

last night at a mac... wun be studying there for a long while.... (unless jap exam? SOT? haha)
Thanks XX =)

娛百小豬好可愛哦

2008-05-30T18:17:00.001+08:00

hehe just like my panda kitty.. want to hug him man...lol

PICTURES...

2008-05-30T04:38:00.001+08:00

let them speakkkk.....

下雨天。。。

2008-05-27T15:40:00.004+08:00

倾盆大雨。。。

hmm woke up like an hour ago... haha you wun believe wat i dreamt.. was at a prayer meeting with PK.. lol

with the rain outside.. the bed seems to be smiling at me again.. and somehow kitty panda is lying on my pillow smiling too...=.=

i have just witnessed the birth of clare lin.. JJ has created a blog for her! at clarelin321.blogspot.com =) really cool

she really looks like jay and cher combined man..

hmm i wonder how my daughter will look like, but she will like hello kitties for sure! hehe

the nusery at TaoYuan airport is what her room will look like! hhaha

nice niceee....

think the day is almost gone soon....going to teach at 7pm then our jammin session at 11pm... another late night again.. with crazy food cravings.. sushi...

my gastric pain was back last night.. really hate it.. man i keep seeing salmon in my head.. help!!
plus a caramel macchiato.........

looonnngg week

2008-05-26T02:05:00.004+08:00

hmm while waiting for my final exam paper, MSM.. i have already prepared a list of things to complete right after my exams...

1) Get my driving license! ( still hesitating though.. cos i dun really have $1000 to throw into the drain every month)

2) Get back to singing lesssons ( meaning me attend lessons)

3) Piano dip and grade 8 theory?

4) Dance at O school.. quite confirmed actually.. have a great time today doing 精武门!

5) Record all the overdue demos!! =.=

6) Have fun without worrying abt studies for now!!!

....

some photoss

my fav kimchi ramen.. haven been eating it for a loonnng time....

waiting to get my fringe cut... boohooo

my new bangs... with ang ker wee behind me... haha initially i was wondering why everyone is calling him "uncle wee" when he's actually not that old.. (another recent realisation as well...hahaha)

haha check out the mansion man... was really jaw dropped when i was asked to drop by... went there with Wei Zhen and Mei Yi ..we couldn't stop "woah"ing

and here we are at the karaoke room.. one of the smaller room liao..hehe my student here is coincidentally blurred to protect her identity..shaln't mention her name.. lol

haha sang a duet with Wei Zhen

There's actually a lift in the house.. and the photo is below is taken in it

last but not least made a new friend today.. her name is Pixie! Pretty huh =)

my mouth

2008-05-22T04:25:00.000+08:00

you can see it here if u haven catch it on channel u ...=.=

。。。祷告

2008-05-22T01:40:00.002+08:00

哈哈，真的觉得左边的twin很像平时戴眼镜的我嘻嘻。。。

今天只吃了一餐，所以到家后看到了牛肉面，就决定把它吃了哈哈。。。

明天的考试真的有点伤脑筋。。。
可是一直有点慌神。。。可能是女人的第六感。。。觉得怪怪的。。

是我想太多吗。。。祷告才最重要吧。。。

明天又有精彩的大风吹彩排哈哈。。。

Photo Highlights

2008-05-21T00:30:00.006+08:00

The BVs!! a pic taken before i head off to the airport

Me and Feli at breakfast! miss her much man i think one of the highlights of this Fukuoka trip was being able to catch up with her... i really hope i can go Tokyo end of this year to find her before she comes back ^-^

The 3 of us at Hinokuni Ballroom after session... heee

Us at Canal City, Fukuoka.. our one and only eating cum window shopping before the dinner with PK @ Diamond City..

Photo taken by Melvin aka silent reader 0848239825 ..wadever.. turns out that he just used random numbers to think that i was still trying to decode it for a while...=.=

Me at Dipper Dan.. my first crepe for the trip!

Haha think she never reads my blog so i am showing u a Kawai pic of Ally!! hehe the youths at Kunamoto was exclaiming how cute she was haha which she says that Kawai over there can be translated as "elegant" in english as well.. i was saying her outfit was cute 10min later and was kenna beaten...ouch.

Me and Mr Know It All.. almost like a secret invisible angel that seems to have noticed almost everything.. see the aura in the pic?? haha i really think it's quite scary that he knows so many things by just keeping quiet.. must learn his special skills man.. shifu..

The most talked about ramen since last yr.. by all the dancers, musos etc.. and it's really delicious!!!!!!!!!!! Ichiran Ramen.. must eat it again ^_^

Not forgetting seeing lots and lots of Hello Kitty!!!!!!!!!

He's Taka..

Pastor Nissida's Wife...not forgetting to mention she watched our dvds like 20 times so she remembers all of us and was so excited seeing us.. really nice lady..

Hehe we are at Chen Jia Liang Mian! one of my must have when i go TW but it's only my 2nd time there eating "live" ...tastes fresher there too =)

We waited and waited till all the guys were a bit zzzzzz so was i but managed to watch for Princess Poon to arrive at the 24h bookstore for cocoa... hahaha see u in SG soon =)

Me and Matt.. din really had a chance talking to him the last time i went TW.. he's a staff at New Life now... funny guy

Enjoying my moments at the Hello Kitty Gate @ Tao Yuan Int'l

Back in S'pore.. at rehearsal for ACSI musical...

Been awhile since i took candid of them together haha went BK for dinner... that's Baby before Makeup.. so proud of her.. she got into Trinity Finals!!! it's a fast dance song or nothing man..hahahaha i will sponsor the super long lashes...=b

Me and CL at the capsules machines@ Cine.. he wanted to get the kitty hp chain before me lor..

my craving which i got it and still drinking it after hours ...hahahaha really enjoy the moment walking back.. for 2 bus stops lar.. then i took the bus 124 in the end for the other half of the journey.. reallised it was reaally a little too far.. dun want to faint =b

and now back to reality.. need to teach in the morning!!!!!!!!

Alarm clock : please ring at 9am
haha

One Year's Up

2008-05-19T18:38:00.002+08:00

it's officially a year...

eventful year ... Thank God for more chances to serve Him... and find the real meaning of life... Finding back myself again... but really... i think my heart can grow stronger......

Check out our latest mv!

2008-05-18T01:16:00.003+08:00

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=17311791043

support our superband08 face book account!!!

updates after a super long day tomolo... seeya ^_^

大风吹。。。back home!!

2008-05-16T05:15:00.002+08:00

pls check us out at the official website!!

yupyup i am finally back home.. forgive me for not updating cos i just finished my ICP paper today.. Nageb was walking ard ( My lecturer.. who actually came and give moral support.. how touching) but i din dare to go say hi to him.. sads.. i better not be the last person that pulled the results down =b by the grace of God, all the questions i read came out... but i really think i could have remembered more.. but seemed to have developed STM for such information...

Well today is really a long day huh.. it's now erm 5.29am and i just forcing myself to update the blog or i wun really find time to ... tomolo would be no choice but shop for clothes day with WZ and then teach and then show our baju to stylists and then back to work and then jam till 2.30am ^_^ ... really thank God for the "rest" i had for a week or so.. though it was pretty stressed as well but whenever on the plane looking out to the skies, and the beautiful scenaries from thousand feet above the ground, it's really a reminder that God is the creator of everything we see and to do a rain check and just take a bird's eye view of whatever we are goin though...

well.. the rain check is i see a storm brewing soon...=.=
sighs.. reality seems to be sinking in... (NOT EMO) haha must have disclaimer.. just sighz... is what i am seeing a sign of thanking God...that this is really the truth... which is u dun have the capacity to handle what's greater.. that the world is a greater lure for you in the end... is that the real you?

really amazed (and a little uncomfortable) abt the amazing paparazzis that we have here.. the way they can retrieve information.. i guess is the reason why artistes seems 'fake" bah.. i think it's a give and take relationship.. if what i want to genuinely share gets twisted and keena stabbed in the back.. then i will soon have to move to blog via invite like my friends (they like one by one doing that liao) =.=

well....trying to enjoy the last moments of freedom here..

better sleep soon...

p.s. made of honour a bit predictable leh.. i can't believe the loudest laugh actually went to the glow in the dark beads which is like pretty grossss =.=

i will try to update more abt my trips in detail.. meanwhile.. all the pics are in facebook.. and i must add a disclaimer : all the fun pics are taken in the limited fun time i had though it seems many =.=

Videos

2008-05-14T15:41:00.001+08:00

here are some of the videos taken during my trip

Reporting live from Fukuoka

2008-05-07T00:40:00.002+08:00

Minasan wa Oyasuminasai!!

Currently at Canal City, Fukuoka Washington.

There's lots of photos to upload especially from the moment i stepped in T3 and at the J-impact conference at Hinokuni Heights, Kunamoto.

The conference was really great .. is like a mini emerge where all the youth from various churches are gathered there for a camp....

The moment we reached hotel, we had dinner and session one begun...

I think the most memorable session was probably Day 2 where Pastor preached his messages... though he had previously preached it during service in Singapore, it was really a word in season and i was truly ministered as well ^_^.. it 's a great break.. fresh air.. great scenery, a place where i dream of staying in hehe

Well it would be a lie if i told u i have yet seen hello kitty.. =b
I found it in between pitstops while travelling on bus and at the canal city mall during our few hour break after 3 dayss..

but i din really get much stuff cos i really dunno what to get!!
found the exact kitty camera and the laptop... the laptop is like erm... 210,000 yen
and the camera is like 64,000 yen...=.=

well.. the people are really friendly here and can't wait for the sessions at FKC

and pls pray for my limited revision time.. like erm now..
seeya

Labouring Day

2008-05-01T13:24:00.002+08:00

was trying to stay really awake for my very last lecture of my life... ICP!
(at least for my degree...)
woah.. time really flies i guess.. did i really wasted these 4yrs if i ended up working nothing related to my degree.. i guess not.. did enjoy my times as a student there and God brought me to know very nice friends and being involved in Emerge and POS plus being schmates with ah fu again!! hahahaa

back in office again... there's no one here LOR....
with only Avril @ recept and Jay teaching and i think i forgot that i wun be seeing FTS or did they forget??? =.= my next class like at 3.30pm??

and i have been quiet because i observed thru an incident how friends react...
and the result is like what belle has said.. time to move on...at least someone trusted in me and not rub in with cynicism...
and i guess it's timely to know who since i will probably need lots of support for the upcoming months.. working and jamming..

yeay... can't wait for the sour soup Jake's cooking later.. we goin to have pot luck!!!
hehe and dage complaining why i haven been taking videos.. okie.. shall take one once i reach =)

and i realised i have to pack my luggage soon man!!
trying to sort out my notes ... really wish i can burn them and drink it at this juncture but... sighz..

Pls pray for my exciting two weeks.. singing @ church then rushing to airport with my luggage erm.. twice... =.=

Idaina Shu!
Hibiku!!!!

hehe

We MADE IT!

2008-04-29T04:49:00.004+08:00

now that the press has announced i finally can talk more abt it !

check out our interview at the following link:

http://video2.channelnewsasia.com/cnavideos/chineseplayer.asp?skin=Player1.swf&player=chineseplayer.swf&filename=xin_042808_dafengchuiint.flv

as well as the news on channel u

http://video2.channelnewsasia.com/cnavideos/chineseplayer.asp?skin=Player1.swf&player=chineseplayer.swf&filename=xin_042708_superband.flv

do show your support via sms in June =)

Some of the photos taken during our mv shoot today...

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=23876&id=679368173&ref=mf

Need a real holiday.....

2008-04-28T02:06:00.002+08:00

=.=
God will save me through this period...
Really exciting times i would say... but there are little moments where i wish i am at a foreign land doing nothing ..maybe shoopping hehe and chilling without thinking what's going to happen tomolo...
These few weeks been feeling tired but my brain can't seem to shut down... Thank God i had good rest after the photoshoot today!! slept for a few hours...deep slleeeeepp

hehe Winnie commented my blog very emo... really meh... okie lar... u should see my friends' ahaha staying pretty positive for now...

really wish to update the photos for today.. but seems that blogspot is giving me problemss...=.=

Tomorrow will be a long day @ Mv shoot plus teaching and preparing for work... production! scores! notes!

Just received the exam timetable today..

really random thoughts cos is like erm 2.30am and i have been having really irratic meal times like today.. my breakfast was at 5pm...
want to drink my milo now.. will update more soon.. hehe if i manage to bring this heavy lappy to jp.. but seems like that mountainous place we going might not even have wifi in the first place...

I really love hello kitty because she doesn't have a mouth which speaks nonssense...
lol

God still loves uuuu....

Big Wind Blowing.....

2008-04-23T03:24:00.003+08:00

Just feel busy trying to reschedule everything already....
Thanks to all friends that's helping me making everything easier... People like Baby
and Caroline and Mummy J... though some sounded reluctant but at least they helped ^_^
The feeling is like you are charging forward and when you turn around only a few are left behind rooting for you..... Thank God I have God but reality spoke a lot to me..
People that might normally sound really encouraging...do they really mean it? Hehe my love lanuguage is really quality time after all... i suddenly dun feel as loved when people dun use some of their time to help me....hehehe

Well well... here are some of the neoprint i took with Baby.. really glad she's staying on 'cos she's been a great help in LWS.. despite her queer antics and boisterous expressions, she is really thinking ahead for us in our schedules! Keep on keeping on! I am sure one day they will acknowledge you strength and support you as a family + you will have friends who really love you for who you are =)

Thanks SH for sharing this site.. though is erm from a man's "hell", but seriously he seems to know much more than me....... I have found many items to add on my wish list!!
think i saw it in TW the other time... sighz...praying for blessings $$ aloud for my trip to FK
hehe i considering to a real one on my ankle as well... u may tag to vote...hahahaah

really cool lappy
haha cost ard $2000.... initially was thinking of proposal but i think will stick to the big juicy diamond like every other lady hehe but i still want this as an anniversary gift or something.,lol

God i need 48 hours a day....

2008-04-21T00:02:00.004+08:00

is as though God suddenly answered many of my prayers... at ONCE...
I guess for the past few years of Emerge, i have been going through stressful May and June and this time, I am pretty used to have lots of events going on before my Exams.. but still ... please pray for me! Not that the examiner will suddenly see all my answers as correct, but at least my cut and paste knowledge will be accurate...=b

here are the picture updates...

here's 大风吹 at our crazy youtube video shoot... i will upload the link once it's up =)

Hughes!! mentioned him several times in my blog and here he is.. heehee

recently i have a crush on this boy but i think he can be my son liao.. hahhaa i am like erm 24 yrs older then him???=.=

so cute huh.. i even have a video of him singing during BV pract...

baby and me at my finally long awaited banger and mash + Bullmer's outing @ Holland V

plus not forgetting to review Funny Games... man... the WORST movie of the century.. believe me, it's worse than Heartbreak Kid... really sick film... and it's 2 hours...
rrrr
i rather watch an english speaking monkey king...

time for QT...

大风吹

2008-04-14T03:56:00.003+08:00

us at Toa Payoh HDB hub on sat!well well... the final results will be out this fri...
Please pray that it wouldn't clash with my trip to see my best friend *_*

with our baby aka president of FC but the same person that overslept on sat as well =.=
me @ HKC again on friday night...
spoof sky of love pic..hehe

me and my mommies reached twin's house at 6.45am on sat morning.. actually my mommies reached earlier to do her makeup but i was really tired.. slept only half an hour!! well.. my twin in law very obedient.. did alll the sabos hahaahah

heeh my cf/msm schoolmate Jolyn.. thanks for you advices..hahahahah and gambate man!!!

and my dear friend ms kelly poon... heard ur starry night demo.. sounds like u singing in korean hehe.. jiayou my friend...

Photo Updates...

2008-04-10T01:56:00.002+08:00

well well... been dozing off after i uploaded the pics.. heehe time seems to really fly these days.. gulps.

hmm ... let's see the pictures folder..

2nd April 2008
11.58pm ..some where in JW
haha... some of us decide to spring a surprise on Angel Y and we were kind of lost looking for the blog while i was still writing his card on the car!! with my Hello Kitty pens of course.. came in really handy.. managed to get blue, yellow and green as well from More than words.. oppps sidetracked.. hehe then we sang our really harmonious and quiet version of happy birthday outside his house.. hehe
It was getting quite late so we left pretty quickly.. I managed to capture a video but hehe dun think will be posting it online.. cos someone looked really funny.. LOL
so here's the pics...

3rd April 2008

was in school for MSM revision lect and it was Ah Fu's convocation!! managed to catch a pic with him in our LT 1.10 =b my jc mate actually graduated before me.. i must clear all my modules this yr!!! Seriously.. it has been grace of God all this while... really supernatural.. cos i dun even remember how i actually dared to attempt Auditing and even pass it last yr.. i can't even recall a single thing i studied!!! Even without emerge this year.. it seems like it's going to be a really action packed month of May.. i really see it coming... Need divine strength of God again...

4th April 2008

guess where i was back again... HKC.. =.= haha and guess wat... everyone's back there as well =b well.. it's pretty strange that these guys decide to hang in town till so late in the night.. nevertheless thanks for waiting cos me and luohan ended up browsing the clothes.. last min shopping for attire again.. hehe.. twin just informed me abt the cheapest stockings at pasar malam.. haha yellow ranger shld go there to get it.. go! go! power! once our powers combine we will buy a white one and make megazord wear it.. hahaha

6th April 2008
Well it was really amazing how i woke up and lasted the rest of the day after watching a really late night movie =.=
me and twin in artiste room =) my new contacts kind of scared myself in this pic.. hahahaha look like my ds touch dectective lor..sighz
hehe i like this candid shot while waiting to cross the road.. twin accompanied me for tunch @ Meridien and we had yummy korean food and then i went school to start teaching.....
while waiting for our xiangu to finish work me and ms cherry decided to take some pics to kill time.... and then we proceeded to day one @ holland v...

yay!! we arrived at breko's..
haha going to be stuck with him for months if we get in.. plus our beloved xian gus who graced the occasion of dining with us..hahahah

7th April 2008
Day 2 @ Holland v
taught non stop from 1.30pm to 9.30pm!! was really tired and hard craving for monster mash but it closes everyday at 10pm.. thus after waiting for ms cherry we reached like 10.30pm.. so we ended up at wala's for pizza and chips.. think either i was really hungry.. or it was really very yummy...

8th April 2008
after a full day of ISORG revision.. i dropped by holland v again.. haha this time for work and looks like i am going to pass by this area quite a bit for the rest of this month.. for rehearsals and training etc.. but i realised Breko's not 24 hours at holland v =.=

monster mash was actually opened but in the end met twin in town and we have a really yummy dinner at Waruku@ Central and we started chatting non stop.. then we proceeded to sit by the river.. really romantic actually and continued chatting till be got some more desert from Azuku Sabo.. tried the red cherry flavour ice cream.. tasted a little weird though.. we chatted till we parted at the bus stop ahah
then luohan called... "save me!! i am out of water!!!' hehe kidding so we went to HKC AGAIN for a drink sighz din get a free drink heee hee

well.. and then it was 9th April 2008
erm aheemm did a "wendy" today..lol reached sch at 1pm and then went JW.. attempted to eat chicken chop rice without a spoon ..thank God grand teacher lent me haha then after a reallllly loooonng pract i managed to eat bak kut teh for once... still yummy...

and now..

hee getting ready for work!

Life of Excellence

2008-04-07T02:31:00.002+08:00

I guess the most memorable part of the lesson today for most people is the part where Mr Tan talked abt the article research in US that sleeping 4 hours or less and 8 hours of more leads to higher death rate.. haahhahahha i think i live a pretty long life then =b poor twin.. she sleeps 12 hours.. sighzzz

Anyway the article kinda concludes that it doesn't contribute to ur health if u sleep beyond 6.5 hours.. which means.. you can wake up earlier than usual to maximise the time you spend on earth.. In Summary:

EXCELLENCE IS
1) to be superior in QUALITY
2) greather in QUANTITY
3)TRANSCEND your job description
4) OUTDO yourself each time

IT's so true whether we are rich or poor, young or old, we are all given 24 hours a day... if so, why some people can achieve so much within a day and others struggle to accomplish the tasks given at hand.. indeed we should truly find a job of our passion or calling, but then again.. how many of us can get to do the ideal dream job we always wanted??

these 2 weeks made me realise how much i have to work on myself.. to become a better person..after all, we are all human. We may have difference job descriptions, but our life purpose is still the same.. You can afford to love yourself a little more by evaluating your life, stop being ambivalent, upgrade your skills and knowledge, as well as cutting away vices.. instead of focusing on others' grey issues in life and being judgemental..

Some of you might know what I am getting at but i really feel for a friend who's going through things that she need not really go through.. Isit really because of the Spiderman motto "With great power comes great responsibilty"? I seriously don't deny that but she kind of alerted me that i might want to go on stealth mode if some people have nothing better to do but to take this form of transparency for granted.

Was having supper at Breko's and we were talking about our industry, where we always have gossips and comments that so and so is very pretentious, a fake.. or whether is he/she acting out a personality and is totally not the true persona of who he/she really is.. but our conclusion is.. they just want to protect themselves from getting hurt.. cos most often those who are transparent would be hurt the most because devilious people would use it as a weapon against them...

Becoming Jane...

2008-04-02T01:14:00.002+08:00

=.= missed the showtime for Step Up 2 AGAIN.. seriously wanted to watch it for more inspiration but today's showtime was at 9.10pm and again, i was still at the desk in school....

I find myself repeating the same story over and over again these few weeks.. due to the many new classes =.= haha really felt like recording myself in a video and then just play it.. or maybe and do something like what my ISORG lecturer was prophesying.. hologramic video conferencing so u can appear in many classes at one time.. hahah

Well.. when the film started in "water horse" colour.. i was really hoping the i wouldn't be strangled by GN and BABY cos i was sandwiched between them hehe.. and when Jane appeared in the old garbs i was really praying hard that she wouldn't speak in cheemm literature english.. She did but it wasn't as bad as i though pheww..
And it turns out that this's a real story about Jane Austen..
Well I would considered it as a sad ending.. but without these events taking place we concluded that she might not have written those great novels..
It still the debate between 爱情 vs 面包。。。

My theory is .. choose LOVE of course.. hee hee... seriously in my opiniion, it's really a gamble you have to take... life is always full of twists and turns .. u might think looking for a rich person is good but who knows few years down the road he/she might become bankrupt.. and a poor person need not stay poor forever...
As long as your partner is diligent, full of Faith, smart and wise, i don't see why God won't prosper him/her =)

okie got MSM tomolo.. must gambate!!!

恶作剧2吻 + photo updates

2008-04-01T00:56:00.007+08:00

They kissed again...
haha i actually unintentionally fooled SGN ...he actually tot i had some juicy gossip =.=.. i was just having my weekly therapeutic drama on youtube haha...

Hmm the last time i did a prank on April's Fool day was on my sec school geog teacher.. a fake telescope causing her to have a big black ring round her eyes.. hahha

=.= haha but i made a prank that made me hungry and actually wanted to really eat it...

well well.. haha finally finished watching my show.. 植树really very shuai..plus the new haircut makes him very boyish.. haha intellectual and handsome guys are really rare nowadays.. just like mobile phones.. there's never a perfect model.. haha same for girls lar =.=

evryone's joking abt a certain friend B being left on the shelf but sighz.. as ur age approaches a big 3 in front.. u realise time and tide waits for no man.. haha though among them it justs don't seem to be my turn to complain haha i was the youngest that day backstage at the stairs but really B ... Zhang ziyi is never really going to happen...=.=

think it's really going to be pretty quiet on wed night.. so many people leaving for indo.. think going to be a short pract.. hehe

doing a feature of my bro since his photo album for some reason is lying on the dining table...

din realise how much cuter he was in the past hahaha and pretty much a poser... now he's like a nerd or wat they call 宅男 haha those guys that lock themselves at home surfing net all day.. .
He's really one of a kind.. used to wonder why he can't be like others but i guessed God still has a great plan for him.. his EQ may be low but is pretty much compensated in the area of his IQ. Which guy reads all his text books for uni during the first year of his NS??!!!
And he is the great bro that makes milo, maggi mee, and drinks for me hahaaha
The most touching scene i had with him was probably the day i won Grand Prix during SEF when he literally ran to the stage wanting to shake my hand to congratulate me.. The joy in his eyes as though he won it himself moved me to tears...

He's still like that little kid i used to know but is now trapped in this dinosaur body.. haha must be the 10 meals he eats a day.. till doc warned him of high blood pressure!! Although u like to eat bro, i really felt my money really vanished the fastest when u gulped down that expensive dinner in like erm.. seconds. I should have bought a soccer jersey, at least it will still be around. LOL

Champs office is going through a major revamp!!

instructors' new pc
all the walls fell down! with a fresh splash of green
baby and gn busy at work =.= counting our $ hehe
hk got bored as well
gn amused at baby's "special sound effects" when counting the hours..
hk: "let me ooutt..."
*stomach rumbled* think the board behind is one of the oldest item around in schooll...
locking up our new door.. we are starting to count how many students will bump their heead into class cos the door changed side!!
Hope not Hughes..haha the loveliest boy that made my day today.. =)

God will Save

2008-03-31T01:27:00.002+08:00

PLEASE. it's really enough.. God save me from this nightmare....
I think i have already woken up. No one would justify themselves 100% of the time cos they can't be 100% wrong all the time. I have been broken enough... Thank God I have a God that forgives and forgets.. giving me a second chance.. stop being presumptous, overbearing, and an over sensitive ear... only picking up decibels of people's voices but not even listening!!!!

Stop acting like you have all the plans laid out when you don't even know any more what you want in life... My listening ear has been in vain. You never really realise how suffocating my shoes were. You're probably only going through a mere 10% of what I have gone through before...

I should really stop being obliging and nice anymore. The arrows turn and the blame is on me. I just want to stick to one job just like evryone else.. I am not a Yoyo. You pushed me away and then sometimes you act like i left on my own accord.
I was right. i think is schizophrenia... i saw the prince that night and i knew that was a rare sight cos in such a long time .. i only met up with him so rarely i can count with one hand.. That one time used to sustain me for a long while with the hope that he will be back again..

But i think God should have a greater plan for me.. I have learnt to say thank you and sorry more to more friends and people around me only because they allow me to do so. And they genuinely believe and trust in me.

I am really determined to enter SOT next yr so i wun be allowed to get hit by flaky verses used out of context when you opted an easy way out yourself.. seeking comfort in almost-strangers that tell you honey coated lies rather than God.

My heart really pains in a different way... I am really glad that i am not into depression because i learnt to love myself for who i am and i believe one day someone will embrace me with open arms and an open heart..

other updates:
1) A wannabe is fast becoming the new 招财猫 of HKC. They should pair up together instead. and yes, it's really uncomfortable and i din smile at her cos i do not actually knoe her in reality.. but she knoes all abt me that is not in the blog?
sounds like a stalker huh.. hahah no offense SH.

2) I have a really long day tomolo and living by faith$$. Thank God we are getting a tiny incentive when we did hit the targeted revenue for the month! jay please come back.. especially when xiangus, ash and mav going to leave for TW by the end of next week!!!!

3) really wanna catch step up 2.. but i think is dissapearing soon.. heard becoming jane is nice and by my next $ day Made of Honour would be out! yeay.. wanted to watch August Ryan but think is over =.= spiderwick chronicles too...maybe will watch be kind rewind on some site =b oh man.. just scrolled down the comming soon list of movies in apr and may and every single one seems nice... gulps..

4) please pray that the audition timing wun clash with twin's wedding .. ideally in between the break time we have or on sun.. sighz

5) continue to fast and pray until i managed to touch down at my best friend's homeland.. which means by then i am suppose to finish studying for my exams!!!

6) been reading friends' blogs and i realised everyone else seems to have a common theme.. bgr.. sighz.. for those friends who are even thinking of celibacy.. yah perhaps some 'me' time allows u to have a clearer picture of what you want in life.. beats jumping from one r'sh after the next like a vicious cycle..
and those who are single all their life going through ambiguous stages... that feeling is really lousy cos u have false expectations and u are not experienced to tell what's real and what's not... hehe and believe me.. even if u get the status which u want, u will realise is really far from those dramas u have been watching..
hahaha

i think the number of silent readers are on the rise..haha so erm.. hi!!
please tag okie...=)

oyasuminasai =)

ICP with Dattani

2008-03-26T15:26:00.001+08:00

Mobile blogging again. . . Many friends are here töo:) jadebear, fion, teddybear n des and many others haha. . Just went i reached on time, the first hour was totally =.= . . I played mario party with Fion. . I will prob scream if my students did the same hahaha. . Anyway. . This is to keep me awake from the salmon don that's digesting in my tummy now. . I am bored enuff to sign up with a recruitment booth at jobfair here. . Who knows, see u at Shenton Way ! Loll but prob a half day contract job. . If i end my insomnia nights. . .so proud of my fellow N307 khakis. . They must have really fasted!! Continue to do so till i mobile blog from my best friend's Land!! Hahaha yippee. . .

Humourous God....

2008-03-26T04:46:00.003+08:00

God works in mysterious ways and sometimes He is really humourous...

Tears turned into uncontrollable laughter when the last person on earth i expected would say :"Tears show that you are human ....it's okay to cry"

Guess He really turned the situation around and made us realise what really matters.. being blinded when you are stuck in a vicious rut, wondering when you can get out of it to realise what you have missed dun feel good at all... as well as thinking what is normal which turns out to be something lacking all this while which can create the same effect.. but you really need to be happy.. I am reminded of this verse that says what's the point of gaining the whole world when you lose your own soul?

Prince was back momentarily.... I guess Put has kind of went into hiding... I turned "human" when I saw the look in his eyes... there was no need of words. I have rare experiences with the real face that i knew eons ago but hope this time he is really back for good... I am kind of reminded of the Two Faces of my Girlfriend movie.. Which one is real? Certainly not the two extreme ends.. but the balanced one..

It was strangely therapeutic and the effect made me lose my insomnia.. i am actually feeling really sleepy and all ready for school tomolo.. Something just broke down and i feel renewed once again.. regardless of what the outcome's gonna be..
God have your way in us......

After Easter..

2008-03-25T01:31:00.004+08:00

It's been a loonnggg weekeend..
was eating supper at liang seah st.. guesswat... STEAMBOAT at 1am looll..after that was a really long day @ work today and i was greeted by our newly painted walls in office! lime green... cooll... it's not really done though so i have yet taken any pics... sighz should have taken a before pic though..=b

Was supposed to study overnight today but my brain kind of dry today =b
Ended up watching a movie Orphanage with Xian gus, boy, ms, and jerry..
Thank God is not a really horror film except for the car crash scene and some shocking parts plus boy making funny noises beside me.. rrr it's kind of like "the others" and turned out to be sad.. ending like dark water...sighz..

Just finished typing something for belle plus supposed to update my resume.. which explains why i am taking hours to update this blog..
sometimes just by keeping quiet and observing seem to see many stuff but guess champs are really bunch of emo folks hehe.. really pray that we will get out of this phase and move on to wat u can see at www.jaylim.net .. hehe
Congrats on the newborn baby clare!!

oh man really 5am soon.. =b
boys and girls eat ur heart out at these pics...hehehe

WISE and the man that sang my favourite 一眼瞬间 duet with Ah mei... 萧敬腾！！！
hehe me and him
the next big thing...

and featuring the look alikes of bv min..

twin is getting married soon... oh no!!!! i just realised why i find 12th April so familiar... it's her weeddding day and i have the audition... gulps.. hope we get the 13th slot... =.=

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CL!!!!

2008-03-21T01:56:00.004+08:00

was CL's birthday on 20th March.. so close to mavis's hehe ...
two martians posing again..
with xian gu
me! ^_^
and zy

and just received sms from Mavis!! Jay's daughter is born!!! yippeee can't wait to see her...
sighz on the other hand.. really praying for a friend's healing... dun want to lose another friend to this stupid illness..rrr. bind the devil!!!!!!!!!

stich has gone missing =( at appealing to public for the missing stich.. i am not sure where i lost him though.. think it was at expo hall one sighz.. it came in a pair and now he vanished.. if u see it lying ard please let me knoe.. haha

been a long week.. was trying to keep myself awake for CF UOL revision lect for tues and wed... and thank God for a friendly neighbour which i have forgotten his name but he was really nice.. though his handwriting was sorta illegible, but i am trained by cheng song.. hahhaa at least dun need magnifying glass! at least i was warned aboout Dr Frantz's slang... "bohhow...firmla... wanla..." think towards the end of our workshop his slang began to sound like his native language liao.. or like speaking in tongues...

39 more days!!!!!!!!!thanks Wenfu for the countdown.. i better WAKE UP..
this is good panic...
*gulps*
heeeelllllppppppppp.........hahahhaha

PT shared a really good message on wednesday.. well, these 7 pointers are really wat we need for this season..

1)understand what we are doing
2)we have NO personal agenda
3)Be free and animated!
4)Open up heavens
5)Do what we enjoy and enjoy what we do!
6)Have a cool head and warm heart.. dun nurse a wounded spirit
7)Develop an attitude of FAITH..

haha and opportunitites come heavily disguised ie. looking like problems or work!!!

and i also like the looking out of window and looking in the mirror part...

We also went for a really rare supper outing.. been a looongg time having dinner with these dear friends.. the last time was ally's wedding can't really count....

praying hard for three friends... 早生贵子！！！

Photo updates

2008-03-19T01:07:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday MAVIS!!!!!! + UPDATES

2008-03-18T02:49:00.006+08:00

tried to act like there wasn't any surprise in office the whole day.. hahaha we all ended up at Dan Ryan's... a place which i never been for years... even till the oyster shooters are no longer available..=(

Went to catch 10,000 BC with boy and ms.. prior to that was WII @ emax with chiarie as well.. hehe u can catch the video i uploaded on youtube =b

I think the movie of the month is probable Sky of Love...

Well... not exactly the exact tearjerker due to the really funny lines .... but some parts of it kinda nailed my feelings exactly...
Random thoughts..
- must it always be that case... saying things u dun really mean... making both parties upset and causing further misunderstanding...
- i guess no matter how much u hide, time will only show where ur true feelings lie.. why bother trying to deceive urself and ending up hurting people near u...
- the sick person trying to drive the loved one away plot is really old and =.= but dunno why people will still use it..
- haha people that will watch it many times and cry over it prob have real life experiences..
- girls like bad guys? not that good guys are a bore.. but maybe when the boldness is used in a correct way bad guys win...

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压抑的心情不能平复
事实毕竟已摆在眼前
又回到原点
得到了不少
但失去了刻苦铭心
泪撒落无数夜晚
也无法挽回

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‘Scars (Stronger for Life)’ by Corrinne May

I just want to run
Just want to hide away
Close my eyes to your gaze
Just want to leave
Don’t want to hear them say
“You’re no good at this”

When the world swirls with naysayers
Broken wings and torn pages
The road ahead
Drowning in my tears

Break me open
Tear me down
Into pieces
Broken crumbs
On the ground
You can mould and shape me
In your image
Breathe your life
You know I need it
Scars make us stronger for life

Losing myself
Gaining it back again
Forging strength from weakness
All that I am
All that I’m meant to be
Melting in your hand

Let the world swirl with naysayers
Pickled hearts and sour faces
What is real is what I cannot see

Cut away
All within me
That won’t bear fruit
Cut away
All within me

Scars make us stronger for life

*****

If not for GOD... is there really a purpose in life?
Any idea why humans have to go through all this pain and torment... coming together, and separating?
Why all we on this earth in the first place?
Do we really have a choice in life?
haha if you have these questions in ur head, come to SOT ..hahahaha

but on a serious note, HE has been what that has kept me going... ...
HE made me look at the positive side of every situation i went through..
HE never gave me up despite times of trials and testings..
HE loved me unconditionally...accepting all my weaknesses and used my strengths to bless other people
HE helped me become a better person.
HE is with me ALL the time...
HE is smart.
HE definitely must be good looking 'cos no human being can withstand His glory..
HE works in ways no human can to cheer me up and lend me a listening ear whenever i feel like complaining...
HE is my best companion...

THANK GOD....

counting down to exams....

@airport

2008-03-05T11:12:00.001+08:00

Farewell feli. . .seeya soon. . Hope i can get to go japan before she's back for good!

@ Ally's wedding...

2008-03-05T02:55:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Suyee!!!

2008-03-01T05:39:00.003+08:00

highlight of the day i guess was the celebration of ms suyee's party @ Changi Village Cottage... she sure got lots of pressies and the ultimate card full of ts's handwritting!!! ahhaha one of other rare singing club's gathering before our exams plus the long awaited ah fu's arrival.... we literally waited till all the guests left.. more photos to be uploaded soon i guess..haha

finally caught Two Faces of my Girlfriend but in the end i wasted my gold class ticket..sighz...
hmmm the actress really looked very very familiar.. but i have forgotten from which movie or drama......oooohhhh!! i remembered.. a drama "which star are u from" hahaah
think all sassy gals can act pretty well..hehe think it's in all gals bah.. after much suppression...hahha

aniwaes... long day ahead... ally's big day coming sssoooon.... as usual i will be more excited than even the bride sometimes..haha still remembered when i was ah yee for the first time for my sis i had insomnia... and feli's back! going to plan the sabos with her...heeee

Revision @ AMK Mac

2008-02-28T01:35:00.004+08:00

Hehe... hibernated again and then met ms suyee @ AMK today to attempt our first revision together.. hahaha

not bad.. at least we got the engine started and we shall meet again tomolo morning... if i manage to wake up on time.. oh yah.. i must say i will wake up on time.. heehee sighz.. got to go KAP Mac..sooooo faaarrr hahahaha

think it's going to be 2 months of getting sick of Mac again...

us hard at work =b

after that was watching Meet the Spartans.. hmm.. i can't wait for Two Faces of my Girlfriend.. and oh my! my gold class ticket expiring!!! howwwww

Mobile blogging

2008-02-26T23:18:00.002+08:00

Hehe now at starbucks beside borders. . While i am studying cf, there a ******* tutorial session going on .. . Soo distracting haha. . I kinda like this mobile blogging thingy . . Can report LIVE ! Haha miss wenfu's count down to exams. . Gulps. And yes. I am still in Singapore folks! Well. . Seems that God has other plans heehee. Good lar, can study and also attend the happening party this fri :b

PS I Love You

2008-02-24T02:48:00.002+08:00

haha mr cheng song commented my ministry is not for the fainthearted..
I am glad i availed myself so i can sneak in some well deserved break but i am still thinking whether to go for mock.. (despite what i told u..suyee..haha i barely touched my icp leh!!!)...

well the percentage of me heading beijing is decreasing... cos is still not 0% till 29th feb..hahahaaha

but guess wat suyee, looks like your wish is abt to come through!!!!

Dr Ulf's service was great as usual.. and i am amazed i haven doze off after overnight prayer meeting on friday.. and i really pray i can wake up in a few hours time.. really living on zoe life of God hehe

The movie wasn't that exiciting or tear jerking like a korean movie.. but it was simply so real and like it could happen to anyone that touched me..
Gave it a few tears and really set my mind thinking...

It's almost a year now... although the person is not deceased (could be another silent reader of my blog), but i cannot feel him like i used to.. .. in a good way i guess =)

back to a new sheet of canvas...

Be Yourself

2008-02-20T01:09:00.002+08:00

Was on the bus to clinic to get my fresh supplies of cream and antibiotics for my ecezema...which sometimes gets mistaken for love bites...F3 (a sian looking face emoticon)cos it happened to be on my neck area...

was watching Joyce Meyer podcast... which reminds me to upload new ones into my ipod now.....okie... plugged in my ipod..

Be who God wants u to be and not what people say of you...
haha she was illustrating how God places very gentle and nicee people around her all the time... and she is just the oppposite..( she's a real powerful and D preacher..) and whenever she's not careful, she sometimes feels very condemned and tried ways to be as sweet as the people around her, which people ended up asking her "what's the matter with you today?" haha

I shall stay sassy. hah hah ( 2 laughing hamsters)but of cos BALANCE is the KEY..

be careful wat you post on blog... shall refrain from laughing at students on blog.. if u have read today's papers you will know wat i mean..

i went through many videos i took and realised i have yet posted it online...gulps... owe nageb an assignment...

time to work...

Things to pack

2008-02-18T03:49:00.002+08:00

Currently in my head now is what to pack for the trip to Beijing...

writing out my list of stuff.....
1)warm clothing.. listing out the combinations of outfits i can have...
2)things to get from twin: pink jkt, sim card, address of the places, charger for ipod
3)notes to bring there, file for score
4)scarf, gloves, jkt to handcarry

not sure if i shld bring my laptop there or not.. cos not sure where i will be staying... i am really stepping in to the unknown.. haha.
Pls pray for me.. to be sharp and alert in the spirit, say and do the right things at the right time....

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Long monday today... was teaching from 1.30pm to 9pm non stop...
Got a little frustrated at some point.. esp teaching the stubborn and the unteachable haha but at 8.30pm a boy made my day.. hughes.. hehe.. too bad he is born like 20 years late.. hahaha

Mobile blogging. .

2008-02-12T16:08:00.001+08:00

Testing. . .here's part of my cny celebrations. . Twin , joyce, mummy j and me at beef horfun. . For more pics u may checkout my facebook . .

LIGHT

2008-02-10T03:00:00.000+08:00

Happy chinese new year....

many mixed feelings today... especially back to a familar place but given a different identity and everything's changed...
sighz... i kinda broken a statement i made today... humans are indeed humans esp. i kinda really want a much deserved break and duty called.
Well... i seriously repent sighz.. this statement is really much harder to live out than what i thought :" Others can but u can't."

silence does not equal to consent.. just been fully celebrating the cny so far ... really enjoy good quality fellowship.. well, sher is right.. friends must be able to speak into each other's life and it's not one sided.. communication is indeed the key of life.. if God din want us to communicate, he would had not just confused the languages at the Tower of Babel, but made us mute. =b

well, sometimes even staying stagnant u will feel like u are backsliding when ur friends are constantly moving ahead.... that's why friends may not be forever like wat some people may envision or hope... of cos emotionally some may disagree with me but if friendships were made to last forever we would need to have matrimonies of different sorts.

well... i have been reminded of Job when bad things keep happening to friends...
try not be like Job's friends... but even His wife gave bad advice and his perserverance moved God.. sometimes Character moulding can only take place if our heart allows God to.. so i really see it as a compliment when people say i have thick skin and thin heart.. meaning less ego, more teachable while the opposite really causes more moulding to take place?

+ remember Lot's wife.. she turned into a pillar of salt looking back... even when she made the the decision to move on.. but her heart was still at Sodom and Gomorrah.. meaning action without the decision in the heart is still in vain...

Thank God for his love letters through the bible...

gtg sleep

Birthdays...

2008-01-30T01:27:00.000+08:00

Man... it's so scary these few weeks!!
like suddenly every week someone's having a birthday...
u knoe u would have this split moment that u wished u din have so many friends.. hahaha

but there are all nice friends... so thank GOD for that...hehe

well happy birthday to davin think his was on 26th jan...
the SIM peeps celebrated at pastamania, funan. was kind of concussed after teaching for 6 hours straight till i returned a missed call and realised i was supposed to be there!!!
after that we proceeded to clark quay TCC and i dished out my camera phone.. as usual...

managed to download a pic taken for a training session for teenage idols a while ago..
hehe think my hair changes quite a lot.. still contemplating abt the city plaza hair extensions...

back to monday after TCC, we went to davin's house to see Bailey!! really a handsome dog.. his fur really reminds me of july.. i din tell anyone but i kept some of her fur with me before everything turned into ashes... but i think i would still prefer a female dog.. Bailey saw fu and turned horny..hahahaha

sighz... really wish to have my own home so that i can have a dog....

some photos that i have yet posted... crab eating, eric's bday, late night at mustafa with mandy and supper with colleague, timbre and spop...

nitez...

BLOG..

2008-01-23T00:44:00.000+08:00

Friends and acquaintance pretty easy to tell huh....

rrr just hope that i can move on to the next phase of life.. pure working and earn lots of $$.. learn driving and get my white car with kitty decor asap...

hate people that infer, imply, watever...
*_* ustmei ebei olyhei... utbei on'tdei antwei otei lakyfei ikelei omesei neosei
if uietqei imetei ancei hinktei of ootingsei therosei eoplepei owhei uietqei ancei it etgei.

my ramblings...

photo updates...

it was ah boy's birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! haha only managed to take a photo of the cake... instead of the birthday boy... haha nvm got a better pic...

two students and our superstar!! yaay.. we can have our shakalaka baby t shirt from tw sooonn..

haha i lurrve candid pics.. this one looks kinda cooll.... wad abt this.....

enjoying sch while it lastsss... been going sch evry mon, tues wed.. kinda tiring but it's the last lap....

chilling at macs..

haha our 暧昧 brothers ...

sy please upload the pics quick hor..

nitez

Neoprint

2008-01-21T03:52:00.000+08:00

haha... i like this one...

新年愿望

2008-01-18T02:36:00.000+08:00

世间的一万种可能。。。。。

昨晚和一位很久没见的朋友聊天。。。发现岁月不饶人。
哈哈也蛮羡慕他。。如果真的当了空少，又能环游世界也何尝不是件好事。

一路走来，发现我对这世界的认识真的还很浮浅。。。人真的已经沦落到这种地步了吗？
我发现在墙外的世界真的是超乎了我的想象。。。

在温室里的小花踏出墙外。。。刮风闪电。

我们的开始　
是很长的电影
放映了三年　
我票都还留着
冰上的芭蕾　
脑海中还在旋转
望着你慢慢忘记你
朦胧的时间　
我们溜了多远
冰刀划的　
圈起了谁改变
如果再重来　
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵
再给我两分钟　
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪　
你妆都花了要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧　
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭　
不是因为在乎

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女人的心像海底针。。。这句话可以解释成女人捉摸不定。。也可以解释成我们的心底埋没的情绪能被埋成大海捞针。自己也不会发现她仍埋着。

记忆的浮现，喜乐与悲伤在一念之差。

我想没人会理解我的心情。以为那就是我的全部，我的未来，但是却可能是我的错误。方法真的是有点残酷，但因而知道那并非是个错误。恍然，却太迟。自以为是的朋友。。。。我该感谢你吗？因你，伤口又在画上一道。

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同样的一场日落
同样你还是没说
只是抱紧我
时间一到就松手
你用一万个理由
都比沉默还温柔
为什么爱我又不断退后
你害怕的是什么
你想要的是什么
站在你背后
我连呼吸都痛
我要相信你是爱我的
我要相信你是勇敢的
我烦时间是最残酷的
我怎么等
我要相信你是爱我的
不要当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯
我用一万个答案
解释我们的距离
到最后发现我全都猜错
你害怕的是什么
你想要的是什么
站在你背后
你怀里有太多问号
告诉我怎么依靠
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新年希望：
1）顺利毕业
2）找到真正的快乐

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